I never expected my big day this year would turn out this way. Much have I learnt, Much have I received, and Much More will I return. This year, it's by far the happiest (and saddest) big day of all my other years. Or at least, that's what I feel right now.
Everyday, I learn something new. Today, I learn that people are meant to change. I learn that we get busy, and we forget. We ignore the smallest things, and we think it is okay. We don't really lie, but at least it is the truth. We leave out some things, and talk more about other things. To much sometimes, that we often end up with a different end in mind. Today I learn that in this life, there will be people to hurt you, to bring you down, to step on you, to treat you like a stain. These people may be the people closest to you, not just your enemies.
But we forgive because "we are friends" and we forget because "we are friends". That is life and it still goes on.
I realise now what I'm worth to the people around me. My family, My friends. Who I am, What I am, How special I am. They say what you don't know, can't hurt you. Today, what I don't know, hurts me alot. To not know my place, To not know what is real and To now know what are just mere words (without meanings or feelings attached) - I almost lost myself.
But that is exactly what life is, and we will all learn how to move on. Even if it takes more than just one try, I will not give up and move on. Even if I don't want to, I will move on for the sake of my own happiness, not his. I will move on.
I am really thankful for all the love that I am getting. I do not want to put off this happy feeling just because I didn't get what I wanted. I guess it is also true when God doesn't give you what you want, it is not what you need then. If I don't need it, then I shall not wait for it anymore.
Hence in conclusion:
What I have learnt 1) Of change. 2) Of hope and disappointment. 3) Of life and tomorrow
What I will keep in mind 1) The true concept of honesty. 2) If I don't need it, then I do not want it. If I can live w/o it, I don't need it. If I am hoping for it, then I only want it.
Thank you all <3 From the bottom of my heart, thankyou terima kasih arigatou kozaimas kamsahamnida^^V
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