Yesterday, we walked; Today, I ran.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Aigoo!!!

1:41:00 AM

Video #1: Oh that confident face is a killer! OH HOLY. The difference is too great! get ready to ROFL :))) (video on replay mode already for me, and I can't stop.)

Video #2: Go to 2:32 and you'll understand. FUUHHH!

Okay now I am happy again, HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY :)

No one can ever understand me, isn't that great?

(enter my name here)

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BEE-Z!!!

12:43:00 AM

I am not going to be bothered by you.

I am not going to care about you.

I am not the least interested, anymore!

You can go and run around, be a nuisance,

DO/SAY whatever you want to whoever -

I DON'T GIVE A DAMN!

You are still like the shadow in the dark;

so insignificant, you don't even exist.

p.s. This is what I ask for, this is what I get - Satisfied yet?

(enter my name here)

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Thursday, January 28, 2010

"long time" was just 24 hours ago!

9:49:00 PM

Am I that insignificant to you?

Is love that easy for you?

Is our memory that insignificant?

Is everything just that easy for you?

U-Kiss

Seeing that blog has been far too word-y for too many posts already, I've decided to put up some pictures here. Just those random pictures of outings with the girls and boyfriends :)

Okay I am lazy to upload anymore than this. Time really flies when you're having fun. We are all having fun now to make up for the lost times but this will soon be over. Results will be released in early march and February is just around the corner already! Not much time left till we decide on our future. Which for me now, is of only one word: Uncertainty. (or is it more of Unknown?) I hope things will work out, and everything will be okay for all of us :)))

p.s. Alright, then I promise I won't be hurt unless I know it's you.

(enter my name here)

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Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Those eyes of yours - I'm in love!

10:01:00 PM

I don't need another reason to be happy.

I already am, I will forever be.

:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

No, you're not in it. Don't worry.

(enter my name here)

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Monday, January 25, 2010

I come in peace.

11:00:00 PM

Morning: All the time while people sleep and snore oh so loudly, I was wide awake. At 7am, I finally fell asleep but woke up 4 hours later.

Afternoon: About time I confessed to him. The burden is now gone, The urge to stop talking is gone. I just let it all out, so thank you for hearing me out.

Night: DEAD Tired. (Of waiting, worrying, thinking, explaining, pleasing, saying sorry) Whatever world, I don't care about what you think because you don't even have the slightest idea about my life even if you watched me grow. You have no right to be mad at me, or even try to make me feel guilty of disappointing you. You will never understand, even if you say you do. That is just what you think, that is not what you feel.)

Went out today. Will not go out (for leisure) for the next 3 weeks. Yes, you heard me right - 3 weeks! So don't bother asking me. Don't even leave a note. Don't think about nudging. I will come and go as like I like it, when I like it.

(enter my name here)

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"I go back there, okay?"

1:00:00 AM

23 Jan 2010: LP post, 2.48 pm - It's been awhile. WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?

(Wearing a green shirt and a white shirt can make that first impression a lot less insignificant.)

24 Jan 2010: Counter 10, 6.05 pm - I wanted to scream a big 'NOOO' to you instead :(((

(I had a few dirty tricks up my sleeve but they are all harmless. The butterflies in my stomach just couldn't stay still.)

I shall remember you, my favourite one.

I will remember you, for a very long time.

How do you do that? Making my heart skip, and almost stopped beating.

THAT ONE-HELL-OF-A-TIME MOMENT -

the happiest I've been ever since working there,

I couldn't even say how fast my heart was beating,

how nervous I was, how my mind went ridiculously insane

with many wishful thinking and silly ideas,

and how I keep on smiling like a runaway mental patient!

I can now leave that wretched, jinx place and forgive all the sins they owe me,

forget all about revenge and bad karma, and even apologize to whoever or so,

because my #1 what-the-hell wish has finally come true!

WOOOOOOOHHHHHOOOOOOO!!!

:)))))))))))))))

Moving on, (before I get even more carried away by my silly imaginative mind)

I finally did some not-so-late-night shopping with me and myself alone.

I must say, being an adult is a happy-but-saddening-and-worrisome issue.

I will be extra careful with money now. Money management needed!

(Bought something for my tired legs, my itchy ears, my cold hands and a bag.)

I am going shopping again in approximately 12 hours.

What else do I want to get?

And the last happy news for me:

I am done. Seriously and very much. hello new ♥♥♥.

p.s.I tell the world about you because I'm so happy you're my first.

(enter my name here)

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Friday, January 22, 2010

You got it all wrong!

6:06:00 PM

Even after a day, I can't forget you.
Even after a month, I can't let you go.

Even if it's a year, I will wait for you.
Even if it's ten years, I will wait for you.
I don't care, even if I'm getting tired waiting for you.

-Tired of Waiting 2PM

This kind of feeling - Worth the wait.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

I'm just being paranoid, right? You don't know nothing, right?

3:45:00 AM

An all-time favourite song of moi;

I sing this song - to cheer myself up and smile :)))

The truth about real trust is

not about trusting what you can see,

but about trusting what you can't see.

I don't know about you but,

I trust you to come and find me.

When it's time, I hope to hear from you.

p.s. I don't want to keep on thinking of you. But maybe, I still am.

(enter my name here)

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Wednesday, January 20, 2010

What about feeling guilty?

4:04:00 PM

(Yes, I want to know so very much because this is about you. That doesn't make sense but I am already going insane here!)

I don't get this game. The players are just so heartless. How do they ever face each other? The rules are just rubbish. There is no right and wrong, and there is no judge. This game is getting scary-er by the minute, and I hope I won't ever have to be called to play this field. Whoever invented this game should be shot dead.

On a more scary-er note, I don't know whose side I am on. I don't know who I should trust. I don't know what grounds I should stand on, what I should stand up for, or even why I need to do this. How did we get so complicated?

Let's take off all our masks, and go back to when we had nothing to our name.

Let's go back to the days when we were strangers, but we've got each other.

Let's do nothing but have fun. Let's not talk but laugh our hearts out in the sun.

By the end of this post, I hope you realise that I do not wish for anything else. But we have been on the same boat. Don't make me push you into the waters and let you just drown. I can't keep on standing up for you, if it's not even worth it.

p.s. to the-friend-having-a-happening-life: What happened??? TALK TO ME NOW!

(enter my name here)

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Monday, January 18, 2010

You don't have to answer me.

5:05:00 AM

I absolutely hate it when my mind is filled with all the 'What Ifs' about this.

I hate it, and I'm going crazy just knowing that I am still bothered about it.

This is just 'What If' and I only want to know, but somehow I am scared too.

(enter my name here)

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:'(((((((((((((((((((

2:22:00 AM

I read this somewhere and it says: Thieves should die.

I agree with this statement. In fact, I hope they get much worse fate than that; even more terrible than death, I don't care!

I am not in a good mood already. This had to happen! And of all other places, that little corner there isn't covered by the 24/7 everything-you-do-can-be-seen-on-it CCTV! Exactly, WTH-WTF! Such bad luck do exist afterall.

I am so pissed off now. I am so whiny and I don't care about sharing the details. To whom it may concern, don't bother contacting me for now until I talk again. But for now, I am just going to live alone in my world.

(enter my name here)

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Sunday, January 17, 2010

Tell me, what are we wearing?

12:17:00 PM

What starts as a joke may eventually find itself to be the truth of the matter.

What starts as the truth will never be too far away from what it used to be.

Just like the name of this street, it was pure coincidence.

(Oh I can't be bothered to fill up the entire story here so whoever that knows, knows what I'm talking about.)

Yesterday must have been one of the most tiring days I've had since my old mugging days. I really hope that morning journey was all worth it. Not to mention the bus-stop confusion and that mountain climb, please let me get this one :)

During interview:

Interviewer: So are you all working?

All: Yes, part-time though.

Interviewer: What are you working as?

Aminah: Errm, I'm currently working as an assistant teacher at CPF. No! I meant, PCF.

Again, I burst into laughter right there and then in front of the interviewer. I think my friends are all jokers in the making. Not only are they ridiculously hilarious people, they are even funnier than any clowns I know!

Work was work, and my back was aching like hell! Packing all the way during the hectic periods, and then when there was (only) an hour left till closing, they gave me Express counter 3! Oh Holy - WHY?!

Alright, GTG get ready to go off for another day (and it's a weekend, mind you) of sheer tiredness. (And then, I have the whole week(days) to relax my mind, body and yes, mouth.)

Even if I'm looking forward to seeing you again, it's not going to be in the near future right? And even if it's going to be sooner than I expected, what difference does it make? We're still not talking (much). It's been pleasure, but IDT I'd be there when you do come back. My days are numbered.

(enter my name here)

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Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I woke up even before the sunrise!

10:10:00 AM

Sometimes, I wonder why I even bother to, subconsciously or not.

Okay, maybe make that almost every time, but only almost.

Mystery Mystery (Why), Mystery Mystery (Why) Mystery Mystery.

Didn't exactly had a good morning,

Not exactly going through a great day,

Definitely being mood-less and zombie-ish.

:(((

(enter my name here)

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Monday, January 11, 2010

No, the one in green.

1:11:00 PM

I dedicate this to the Mister.

Lalalalalalala Lalalalalalala ~~

There's always something behind something, if you get what I mean. Going to work nowadays have been somewhat (surprise, surprise) exciting.

Back to my story: when all you do all day long is to attend to people, serve people, help people, direct people, answer people's weirdest questions, and get troubled by all the shit that people (can) do, you can't help but to really be good at observing people even while being in the middle of such peak periods. If you really know me, then you should know that I am getting somewhere here. And me simply being me, I see what I like and I like what I see :))) I tried to take a peek at the badge, but unfortunately I can be very blind and yes, naive.

This is my most recent encounter with a very charming-hot-and-sexy-with-abs-that-looked-like-it's-been-perfectly-carved ang moh (let's call him G):

S: By Nets or Master, sir?

G: I'll be paying by master, thanks.

S: Alright. (Cannot detect chip) Sorry sir, do you want to try by Nets instead?

G: Yes please.

S: (Swipe card) Okay, your account and pin number?

G: I'm sorry, you want my number?

My heart almost stopped beating when he said that with the thick accent of his. I couldn't help laughing and almost sitting down on the floor, trying very hard to control myself. Tempted to say "yes please, if that's possible", I ended up just saying "No, I meant your card's". Okay fine, it was very chaotic then, and I wasn't really talking as loudly I would but still, he didn't have to be so _____________. Oh holy-kemolly! Such moments are rare but when they do occur, it's utterly hilarious!

And for my dear co-worker, it's just a dream. Let's not get carried away and think of the best things to happen. Now, for reasons unexplained, I can't wait to come back next week for more eye-candy treats :))) I'll come with my specs so that I can see more clearly, and try to at least get the name :)))

(enter my name here)

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Friday, January 08, 2010

Just Because

1:08:00 PM

No, I have not. Just not yet, I hope.

Because for now, I am still, very much.

I am not confused, I am not clueless.

I don't want to say anything for now,

even if it's already crystal clear.

(enter my name here)

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Monday, January 04, 2010

Stand up when told to sit.

2:48:00 PM

I think that too many of us say the things that we don't mean to, especially when we don't want to. I think that too many of us don't say the things that we want in a way that we meant it to. I think that too many of us say the things that we don't want, but most of those times, we really don't mean it at all. I think too many of us don't mean to say the things that we said, but that is what is wanted from us.

I think all of us have grown to be pretencious people in one way or another. I think all of us have that side of being totally dishonest and think that's it's okay. I think all of us have forgotten what words can do, and what deep meaning they hold, and how those words, once spoken can never be undone.

We speak in codes, we give names, we use sign language, we talk informally and blatantly, we send cute, little messages and we play mind games. But really, how much of all that do we really mean to say? Words may just be words, but a thousand of them already draw up a picture.

My new year resolution is for all of us to be more honest with ourselves, and with all others without ever feeling afraid. Unfortunately, this is far from simple, for reasons I shall not explain further. Unfortunately, this is the reality of us - what we have all become.

The world is made up of 3 scary things: Humans, Money and Words. However, (hopefully) I only fear Allah s.w.t. instead :)))

(enter my name here)

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Worthwhile being worthless.

1:41:00 AM

It's been long, and I've been too tired most of the time. I feel so drained e-v-e-r-y-d-a-y, believe me. But much have been gained, as much as those that were lost. At the end of 3 weeks working at you-know-where, I wanted to share this much:

Humans can be utterly brainless, brutally rude and disrespectful and at times, ridiculously worse than any known species of animalkind.

Moving on - I've been so out of touch with my Kpop/Jpop craze that now, I'm smiling as widely as I can because I finally heard my Taeyang sing again. :))) Credits to Safiah for the free fan service.

Whenever and whatever he sings, Taeyang give me the kind of feeling that makes me believe that perfection and miracles really do exist in this world. He is afterall, my Taeyang :))) The only one that I prefer singing live with that heart-melting sincere voice and the only one who can dance so beautifully with that hot body of his. WOWWW is an understatement.

Looking back, I have been missing the Big Bang, and hence, the video below makes up for that.

And as for 2PM oppas, what a performance! Junsu's ever-mesmorizing voice gives me the chills all the time :)))) i loike!

I think that musicians are the most charming species of human ever found. Musicians ftw! :)))

Alright, I'm done for now. Gtg sleep and sleep and more sleep! And oh, if it's not too late: HAPPY NEW YEAR FAMILY AND FRIENDS :))) Have a ROCKING 2010!

(enter my name here)

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