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oh man, today marks the last day of empty canteen, no-traffic hallways, unused classrooms and lonely staircase. tsk, i've grown attached to the silent school and then suddenly, those younglings are coming already! and don't they dare take our famous spots and usual hang-outs! and oh, they better stay far away from all my dearest heartthrobs, whoever they may be! (oh yes jannah, i feel your pain.) LAUGH OUT LOUD.
in light of the college road race (Parada Olympica - yes, wth!) all the PE teachers are out to really torture us. 6 (or 7) rounds around the track and 2 sets of those ugly strengthening - cruntches, push-up and and the 'mermaid' stretch. urrrgggh! but me being the great and mighty nurulshafienasbintesalleh did only 5 rounds and too little of those strengthening that i can't rmbr how much i did and managed to not get caught. haha - it's all in the timing people. watch and learn next time. rules are meant to be broken and sometimes it's alright to do wrong things.
speaking of wrong, i think this someone is being an OGL with all the wrong state of mind. to you: if you think you can't handle the pressure, then why do it in the first place? and this is besides the fact that you've already experienced it. wth! haven't you heard: failing to plan is planning to fail. no wonder you failed your first attempt of planning the same thing, it's because you had this pathetic attitude and stupid ego of yours. you can even boast about how you didn't sleep the entire night and try to give some motivating speech at the end of it, but you just don't give a damn at what you were supposed to do at that time in front of me and you think i am at least interested by those fun moments - save it okay beacuse i'm NOT! your brain is just as rusty as yourself. you went on blabbering about those times that you've forgotten to bring yourself back to the present time. hello!!!?? is your brain still functioning or is there nothing to begin with? there are a lot more other people who have CCA and SYF, and if your fucking president can at least show some commitment, then don't you dare give me those lame excuses and try to fake it with your ugly smile. coming late was one thing, trying leave to early is another. oh how i wish i can slap your face, so hard you'd even forget you existed! you act as if you have great leadership potential, but actually you've just proven that you are only as clever as a goldfish - what crap! if this doesn't work out, i swear i blame it all on you and your fucking, irritating and confidence that it just won't work that you weren't even bothered to at least try to make it work in the first place. if it does, you're the last person i'll give credits to, that is if i'm kind enough. sheesh, which dumb person actually made you an OGL huh? { i can go on and write a million word essay on this, but you've wasted enough of my too precious time, miss-C.}
they said it's going to be dominated by a whole list of malay chickies - oh well, so are we still putting them on the beauty scale? LOL - inside joke. orientation should be fun, i think since so many people i know and just-know are involved in it. being part of the finale comm is definitely depressing, and that doesn't include the planning part yet - oh holy! but i'll have my time chilling with sell-oh-mars and joy-ah at our GMS station. {eh, who else is C6, huh? please let there be someone i know be with me. but then again, who don't i know?} oh and siti and i are definitely hosts for the finale night, ROCK ON! siti insists she says her full name since there's someone else bearing the same name so i'm cool with it, my name is just too unique/special/sweet/beautiful to have any incompetent copycat. {forget it you younglings - even if you do, i'm still the number 1. idk for what, but i rule.}(a little peek for finale:)
Siti: before we begin, i'm Siti Khairunnisa but you can call me siti.
Me: and i'm Nurul Shafienas, but you can call me tonight or anytime!
(we'll be rockstars for the night, and i'll do the curtsey graciously.)
i'll remember to save stories for my two sweethearts (jenab johnson/danny jones and gay-ah/nadirah) who are not in it for orientation 09. confirm - i'll have a full report back for you! and oh, please keep a look out for my favourite mama-mia okay? continue being oh-so-nice and smiley, even to the others. remember: stay healthy so you can be alert in class, when we're not there to make noises! if you want sweets in lectures to keep you alert, ask me (though sweets are not healthy, right?). i'll gladly give it, even to those friendly strangers. if you see me, strike a pose here and there. ohhhh and we must do the latest walk in town and the talking! get into formation people - we'll rock the school. somehow, i wished we had a school bus to drive us to school, and then we'd get down the bus like we owe the school. eh but if you have stories too, don't forget them too!
okay enough of this post already, or i won't stop. and OH thank god it's friday.
p.s. how long has it been again? we're good now, but i still remember the time we weren't. your act is good, really - oh i applaud you for that. we'd be fine again for real, right? go away you PMS-shit, go with the wind! shoo, and don't disturb me.
(enter my name here)
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
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did i tell you that mission impossible is not so impossible after all?
i've got a mission on my agenda - let's see who can make the correct guess.
oh nadirah darling, you made my day today. ILU and your brain rock. i'm super-duper-uberly happy that i can kiss you right now. {okay that's wrong but you know what i mean.}fyi: GG's intern is back in the house for good. yes, you know you love me.
start giving those last minute tutorials and let the game begin - the 'fight' is on. may the force be with you. {do you understand the words that are coming out of my mouth? sheesh, you're so wols. okay how about try imagining me saying this straight in your face: cepat cepat people, snap snap. do i make myself clear? {i love talking in riddles, so you'd understand me better.}okay now back to my malay essay: 'kedamaian dunia adalah satu ilusi.' yes exactly, whattheheck-bluekk-uurgghh!
(enter my name here)
i tell you
2:46:00 PM
If this is only the start,
Then I'd say don't go on, you.
If this is how the end goes,
Then I'd say well done, you.
I'm more crushed than crumpled paper.
I'm more shattered than broken glass.
Ever since then, I've lost all that is left of me;
And it's all thanks to the only one I see.
You don't look at me the same way,
You don't listen to me the same way,
You don't care about me the same way,
You don't even talk to me the same way.
What used to be the same way,
Now just used-to-be the same old way.
Letting go of you and seeing you walk -
You just let me leave without hearing you talk.
And now I wonder why I am still right here,
When you don't even care if I'm not near.
Maybe it wasn't my fault,
Or that you weren't wrong,
Maybe it wasn't a mistake,
Or that we weren't to blame,
But still, nothing was right.
I cry each and every night, and I cry so much.
I lie still and tried to remember your nudge.
I tried to remember whatever's left of us,
And then it hit me that it was all in the past.
Is it me, or am I further away?
Is it me, or what was it you say?
Is it me, or am I the only one thinking what might?
Is it me, or do you just don't walk by my side?
Is it me, or am I chasing cars?
Is it me, or are you tired of us?
Go on and say it, so I won't be bothered
To guess it all and whatever that I've seen.
Go on; and don't you dare be a coward now,
Like how I am, like how I've been.
I turned right, you took left -
and leave whatever we once have.p.s. i wrote this for a broken-hearted ex-boyfriend to his not-so-over-her ex-girlfriend.(enter my name here)
Monday, January 26, 2009
the tag
12:23:00 AMright at that time, just when i was about to laugh out loud:
okay i'm freaking pissed right now and i feel like exploding. even the hulk wasn't as angry in his entire lifetime. i want to punch someone's face so hard and so badly enough, that it'll send him/her back to the Ming dynasty right away! this is not okay; this is what-the-fuck???!!!!hint: no matter how bitter the medicine may be, you'd still have to swallow it.p.s. look at what this post is labelled as.
{in other words, the truth hurts, so bad. really, really damn bad this time around.}
(enter my name here)
Sunday, January 25, 2009
freak-zilla
11:22:00 PMRaidah tagged me to do this - so here i go. oh please don't take me seriously, though i am serious about doing this. i'm super bored and i can't think of a silly-er way to waste my time.1) Put iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2) For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3) YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4) Tag other friends who might enjoy doing this.
If someone says “is this okay”, you say?
Ceritaku - Revalina
What do you like in a guy/girl?
Breatheless - Shayne Ward
How do you feel today?
Haru Haru - Big Bang
What is your life’s purpose?
Doing That Thing You Do - The Wonders
What is your motto?
Be Good To Me - Ashley Tisdale
What do your friends think of you?
All About You - McFly
What do you think of your parents?
Stop and Stare - One Republic
What do you think about very often?
This Is Me (acoustic) - Demi Lavato
What is 2+2?
Low - Flo Rida ft. T-Pain
What do you think about your bestfriend?
That's Just the Way We Roll - Jonas Brothers
What do you think about the person you like?
Dance Like There's No Tomorrow - Paula Abdul
What is your life story?
Thunder - Boys Like Girls
What do you want to be when you grow up?
When I Grow Up - PCD
What do you think when you see the person you like?
All Or Nothing - O-Town
What do your parents think of you?
Only Hope - Mandy Moore
What will you dance to at your wedding?
Lucky - Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Caillat
What will they play at your funeral?
Starts With Goodbye - Carrie Underwood
What is your hobby/interest?
If I Were A Boy - Beyonce ft. R Kelly
What do you think of your friends?
Womanizer - Britney Spears
What’s the worst thing that could happen?
Unappreciated - Cherish
How will you die?
Last Of Diary - Se7en
What is the one thing that you regret?
Everything Changes - Staind
What makes you laugh?
All Night Long - Se7en
What makes you cry?
Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word - Blue
Will you ever get married?
Jangan Bilang Tidak - Raffi Ahmad ft. Ayushi
What scares you the most?
I'll Do Well - Se7en
Does anyone like you?
The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script
If you could go back in time, what would you change?
Better In Time - Leona Lewis
What hurts right now?
Right Here Right Now - High School Musical 3
What will you post this as?
Take A Bow - Leona Lewis
And these entities shall oblige to do this:
1. my gossip sources: Wida Murni, Jannah, Nadirah 2. my twin-haired sister: Aminah 3. my second mum: Namirah 4. my famous friend: Diyanah 5. All others who wishes to this is definitely, by far, the freakiest that i've been asked to do. too many answers are just too freaky that i am still not done freaking out as of now; while the other answers are just too funny that i can't stop ROFL. and i swear i switched the play options to random. okay seriously for real now: go try it. you'll be surprised at how surprised you are after that.okay enough, moving on. back to business before i go. i want to scream from the top of the tallest building in the world; but i don't know what. oh shoutout to safiah: i'm officially hooked to the songs Haru Haru by Big Bang and Nobody by Wonder Girls - thanks eh! and shoutout to wida: i am 100% confident that i'll fall for TOP (not Big Bang) anytime soon - actually more like now. but i still love my se7en - haha. and shoutout to jannah: can you please send me ALL our class pictures when you see me online? and shoutout to 08A301s with facebook acc: can you send me all pictures Ms Lee have that she upload there? {anyone of you la, not all, duhh.} okay, that's all - i'm assuming all that i gave shoutouts to here do read this. {if not: whattheheck, tommorow never dies.}
p.s. shit - i was supposed to blog on MWH - tskk.
p.s.s. double shit - i'm still not done dealing with .
(enter my name here)
Saturday, January 24, 2009
end of the week
2:22:00 PMi'm no good at words, really. so from now on, i'll leave some words unsaid - it is for the better.you're everything i thought you never were and nothing like i thought you could have been. but still, you live inside of me so tell me how is that? you're the only one i wish i could forget; the only one i love to not forgive and though you break my heart, you're the only one. and though there are times when i hate you cause i can't erase the times that you hurt me and put tears on my face. and even now while i hate you, it pains me to say, i know i'll be there at the end of the day. i don't wanna be without you babe. i don't want a broken heart; don't wanna take a breath without you babe - i don't wanna play that part. i know that i love you but let me just say: i don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no. i don't want a broken heart; i don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl. no, no, no broken-hearted girl.
something that I feel i need to say but up till now i've always been afraid that you would never come around and still i wanna put this out. you say you got the most respect for me but sometimes i feel you're not deserved of me and still you're in my heart but you're the only one. and yes, there are times when i hate you, but i don't complain cause i've been afraid that you would walk away. oh but now i don't hate you; i'm happy to say that i will be there at the end of the day. i don't wanna be without you babe. i don't want a broken heart; don't wanna take a breath without you babe - i don't wanna play that part. i know that i love you but let me just say: i don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no. i don't want a broken heart; i don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl. no, no, no broken-hearted girl.
now i met a place i thought i'd never be, oh. i'm living in a world where it's all about you and me, yeah. and i won't be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away, away with you. i don't wanna be without you babe. i don't want a broken heart; don't wanna take a breath without you babe - i don't wanna play that part. i know that i love you but let me just say: i don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no. i don't want a broken heart; i don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl. no, no, no broken-hearted girl.beautiful song, beautifully done. deep meaning - more than just words. when i can't tell you how i feel, or say anything else to you, i'd sing a song. {aren't you even worried that it's you?}
{it's nice if you can do this all day and just wonder about what else life has in store for you.}
the end of the tunnel - i will get there, with or without you. the day after tomorrow - i will learn to be me again. last time i checked, you have yours, i have mine. we're even now - period.
p.s. click here for MWH pictures and here for Nasihah's Birthday pictures. tell me if there's anymore that i owe anyone of.
p.s.s. MWH post will rock you next time.
(enter my name here)
Thursday, January 22, 2009
time machine
8:08:00 PMhey hey hey 4E3 '07! remember this one? {our graduation day.}okay i need to do this quick one.
i salute the person, i mean councillor for doing this great piece of work. can you see who's not included in it? how childish can we get, right? LAUGH OUT LOUD.
to all: i just needed time off from being myself today. i know all of you were scared of me when i'm like this shit but oh well, this is life. {it was hard maintaining that serious look all the time too.} and oh, sorry all.
to you: "it's not what you did, it's what you didn't do" - i didn't get it at first but right now, i know exactly what she meant when she said this and why she said it to you.
to you: don't you dare breathe a word about anything to anyone. i swear i will kill you if you do, or if not, i'd be your greatest enemy. i'm serious okay, and oh thanks again. all will be fine, promise.
to you: okaaay, i won't do it again - i mean at least not in the near future.
to you: yes, we'll talk soon, real soon. it's been way too long.the beauties and a beast - i can't believe how much we've changed. Z now with the bob, A no longer with the dora-the-explorer look (like in the picture), D and her sexy bangs, N finally got her rebonded hair, R can now tie her hair and show it off to the world and i permed (some people didn't know i did) my already-wavy hair. fazari?(err, describe, not flatter yourself here.)
shoutout to my RADIOS girls: how have you girls been? god i miss you ALL. we need to find some time and just bubble with each other. {err, yes, we did have a boy amongst us. i said 'boy'; i didn't say which one. HAHA, just joking.}
(enter my name here)
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
okay school has just been more busyBUSYbusy days for me. with the orientation camp coming soon, and the things that needs to be done after what seemed like forever of planning and all the drama work while balancing on even more confusing concepts of everyday studying including the missed-wellness programme, at least i can now channel my focus to what should have been my priority. it's like suddenly i'm friends with everyone. hmmm, (not exactly the correct words to put it) but i've just gotten more crazy-seriously-just-making-a-fool-out-of-myself-for-all-everyday kind of person. i get high easily on certain days, and you'd never know what i'll do next. let's just say at least i get the smiles rather than the same-old-plain-shocked-and-expressionless faces. OH HAPPY DAY!
because everytime i laugh,a little part of me die inside.
because everytime i see you,
a little bit of me cry inside.
so you answer this for me now:
how many times have you seen me so happy?
what happened to us?
how did we come to this?
where did we go wrong?
why are we so silent?
when will all this end?
these questions are just so yesterday;
i don't care anymore.
you're gone, but i still see your shadow.
you're there, but i still need you here.
i won't beg you to come back this time,
but i know i didn't force you to leave either.
i've gotten used to this feeling,
like it's a part of me.
i've gotten used to this other feeling,
like it's a part of another me.
i don't make the cut.
i can't make the cut.
i'd never make the cut.
so who am i?
Damn you, damn you!
one day, you'd regret this.
but for now, be happy;
while you're still there.i know this is just selfish of me to not update about my currently wonderful/happening/hip/cool-shit/never-stopped-laughing life blablabla but i just need to let this shit out people. i wanted to talk, really i do, but i guess words just don't mean anything already. sometimes what i say just doesn't come out the right way, and it's just so irritating because it's not what i want to say in the first place at all! just a random note: when you think you're something to someone, you could end up as nothing to no one. and then you'd wish you'd be everything to everyone. that's how real villains are born.{i want to shout and scream - i don't give a damn if i get caught pissing you off. i want to punch you so hard - i don't care if my bones crack. i want to have amnesia so i will stop all this.
sheesh, nurulshafienasbintesalleh, how i oh-so-loathe you right now. stop it bitch!}p.s. it's one thing it's you, it's another thing it's still you.
p.s.s. at least, i smiled tonight; thanks for that.
(enter my name here)
Sunday, January 18, 2009
my friend, my beloved
4:04:00 PMLouisa May Alcott:"Stay" is a charming word in a friend's vocabulary.(enter my name here)
(No, except for you, they're still here.)
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day
If I could be here happy for you, I would be happy with you.
If I'm not there with you, doesn't mean I'm not here for you.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
but it's just school!
10:23:00 PMIf you want something so badly, then the world will conspire to give it to you.
okay firstly, what a week! i have not felt so tired during the first week of school since forever! like seriously, suddenly everything is happening! hmm, where should i start? well apart from the sleeping-still-after-midnight times, assignments have started to come piling in again. with teachers already knowing you, and even more unknown teachers knowing you, school is simply fantabulous. well at least for now. oh and i've been promoted to secretary from being head of logistic support (which shares roles of secretary at a very minute scale), and trust me, the work is really wasting-my-time kind of thing. but oh well, i'll try my best to keep up to the standards.
okay since wednesday and thursday went by so fast, i won't be bothered trying to remember what happened. all i know GP is currently still enjoyable because of the many historical things i learnt (this is possible because it was the so-tired-over-geography period) and that we are still in not really into the studying-24-hours mode. drama will no longer be on wednesday so the day would be reduced to a coming-to-school-at-9.15-and-going-home-at-1.45 day! oh and my last malay period at 4.15 will be at common lunch so i won't have wasted time during the 2 self-not-study periods earlier. (i do hope drama is not on thursday, though coming to drama after PE is very sucky-yucky.)
besides being the OGL, i've also signed up to be one of the emcees for the Orientation '09 finale night. i've taken 3 of emcee-ing events but this one must be my biggest one. imagine - 1000 freshies with their eyes on you! (OMG it's so fun calling them freshies!) i'm definitely not appearing onstage alone! i had wanted to withdraw earlier, but then siti's msg came, and i'm back on track. i so hope if i'm chosen, she's chosen too, because i may have some trouble communicating with the others. hello! i still do not know half of the student population, though aminah is always coming to me to ask about other people's whereabouts. (p.s. i may not know you, but i've heard lots about you that i don't see the need to know you - HAHA.)
speaking of siti and aminah, the four of us which includes safiah, also played hide-and-seek in school on friday! school ended early and we didnt have anything to do and the finale auditions were at 2. we had 2 hours of free time and were really bored. so siti suggested playing hide-and-seek after our failed attempts at syair-ing and all the rap and also after the talk about sean-fiah. (i had always wanted to play catching in school - refer to my quote above.) it was small scale, as in we only played within a small space - the canteen all the way top the netball court area. aminah and safiah started counting, while siti and i started to run. so from the canteen, we searched for places and had wanted to go into the gym, but it was far too easy. so we went on and ended up at the never-been-there soccer court. we first sat on the steps but then it was so open that we could see safiah and aminah searching for us from afar. so we went in onto the court and siti started recording. it was so funny; i should have asked siti for the video! the way she spoke; it was as if we were like terrorists! in the middle she was like whispering softly and excited: "oh sshhhh, they're coming!!! they're coming!!!" hahahah. aminah and safiah had 5 minutes to search for us and they ended up giving up because they can't be bothered maybe. and so we won! LOL.
after finale auditions, i had planned to go back home and try to get some sleep but then i ended up at LT5 (with reasons not worth explaining) to watch the movie Love Guru. i was suddenly wide awake and laughing all the way. the free food was a great thing, seeing that i was too bored of our canteen food and that i was tyring to save more money. i had wanted to go on to meet diyanah and nasihah (it was her birthday) with my uniform but then i didn't bring her birthday gift. so right after the movie ended, i quickly went home and took a quick shower. not only was the day humid and all, i was feeling uberly tired. (i'll tell you why later.)
we had eighteen chefs - D's treat! (thank you so much D!) then we all did more catching up and talking all the way. after that meal, simei being boring-simei, the three of us headed to not-too-boring TM. we just did a lot of shop-hopping and didn't know what to do. then i received my come-back-home-to-mars call at 8 and we headed for the MRT. diyanah and nasihah decided to bounce back, so i wouldn't be alone. only at p.ris mrt did we start our official camwhoring session. at first they let 1 train past, then it was another, then another until it was 8.20-ish that they finally took the train from p.ris all the way to the other side of Singapore. (i'll let the pictures do the talking another time okay.)
okay so besides the fact that the day was already a long day, it definitely didn't help that i had MWH CIP the next day in the morning! friday was tiring but i managed to stay uberly high and happy-go-lucky besides the fact that i only had 2.5 hours of sleep the night before. thanks to geography! (this is the reason i had wanted to tell earlier.) i was late for MWH, like uberly late because i woke up at 9.10 when i'm supposed to be at MWH at 9.45. LOL.
alright, there goes my long post for you to explain my long absence, though one week didn't feel that long, but more of it being packed, i think. this definitely excludes the useless self-study periods. i'm sorry for the lenghty-no-pictures-at-all post - you have successfully wasted approximately 4.56 minutes reading this update.
p.s to my oh-so-beautiful friend: if you can't even love yourself, then even i won't let him love you. if you are not worth it in his life, then he definitely isn't worth it in yours. i don't know what you know, i know what you don't. you are beautiful - in every single way. if you truly love, then let it go and be free. if it is really love, it will come back even if you throw it to the other end of the world. if it isn't then it wasn't even love to start with. a girl can dream, but one day she'd have to wake up.
(enter my name here)
Monday, January 12, 2009
the day shines again
8:52:00 PM
1st day of school was 1st day of school, but it definitely didn't feel like it. today was also wear-red-socks day. idk why i declared that but i did, and so people followed instructions dutifully. hmm, let's see what happen today?
overall mood: bored but not to death, happy-go-lucky but only every now and then. the school was too empty for too many periods of the day. even though the day ended with suddenly seeing so many people unexpectedly. we'd still have a whole month more of today, but i think i'll get used to the i-owe-the-entire-school-and-i-can-talk-as-loud-as-i-want feeling without feeling so attraction-seeking-person kind of thing. okay this is contradicting. but nevermind, my father pays the school fees, right? oh and we can try the new walk in town.
overall timetable (teachers & lessons): compass was compass, boring but still enjoyable. though ms rai is no longer there, but i think the new teacher's doing a fine job. maths - let's skit that. econs was more of laughter but some serious rules laid out. then 2 periods of i-forgot-what-we-did times for recess and self-study. all i know the school felt like it was a cemetery, seriously. geography lecture was still as boring, GP was next and then followed by lunch. when we arrived at the canteen, i was surprised at the many unfamiliar faces and missed the shared breaks with my dearest MJI. tsk. then more of geog tutorial with a very interesting/funny/interactive teacher. oh and thanks to ms sim's persistent urge for her book review, i finally finished my part. HAHA, and i can safely say 50% of it wasn't done by me, even if it was individual work. how? tell me what are friends for.
all in all, though 1st day wasn't any memorable, we (my friends and i) did have our moments, which include the zztzzts and the constant continue-your-story cases. oh and i visited the library more than once today. i definitely didn't think i'd step into the library on the 1st day of school, but whattheheck. hmm so let me think, did anything happen there? well, let's just move on. OH and i definitely know what it feels like to be popular. HAHA so done and over with being coolest. i don't need the whole teacher population to recognise my face, but oh well. with fame, there comes shame. OMG, what have i done? my expressions in the picture taken were disastrous, like an animal!
gossip of the day: of course i can't tell you THAT!
joke of the day: the what-do-i-hate-about-school? question; you should have listened to nadirah's answer to that. LAUGH OUT LOUD really.
food of the day: marshmallow, tic tac and carrot cake at OCK.
song of the day: rindu serindu rindunya - try singing it. {it's so depressing!}
line of the day: "die tak nak, kite pon tak ingin...!" (actually this isn't true, but wth!)
okay people, listen up. pay attention and take note please
- if anyone reads this on time.
2ND DAY OF SCHOOL IS WEAR-BAGPACK-ONLY DAY.
idk why but yeah, so it's your choice to be in the crowd.
OMG who am i again?
i hate PE at the end of the day. it's really shit okay. but at least i know S417 and A102 will be there too. so we'd probably have a small chit-chat session after that? idk, i'm just so happy to see them again. and i have my sastera tmr! it's not the lesson (it's 2 periods - OMG) nor the teacher, trust me. with H1 malay gone, i miss talking just malay in class. stupid English language, but i enjoy its grammar. step by step - how do you pronounce that again? and what about common-sense-ically? LOL; nvrm inside joke.
okay okay, better finish up what's due before I get sleepy and what not. and oh, welcome back Upper East Sider-ers. {gossip girl here.}
(enter my name here)
Sunday, January 11, 2009
where's school?
4:56:00 PMthis picture is to summarize my current wants:
new pencilbox and high-cut shoes; and include mp4 too.
(there's still a whole list of the others)
mood: no mood and a little bit anxious.
oh i don't know - tsk.
OMG - SCHOOL'S IN LESS THAN 24 HOURS.yes! - oh wait, NO! let's check again: assignments are 81% done, holidays: less than 18% of the days enjoyed! whattheheck. idk if i should be feeling (__enter feeling here__). meanwhile, it's odd to have other people called J1s. it's even more dreadful to be called J2s. oh and i need to change back to my old sleeping times, which is NOT the currently-sleeping-only-at-3am times. did i tell you i've already packed my bag? but i'm so not ready for school just yet! i think i'm suffering from bi-polar disorder, apart from the fact that i'm a part-time perfectionist with full-time OCD. (okay i'm joking.)
why do we have to go to school? because Daniel J. Boorstin (i don't know him either) said that education is learning what you didn't even know you didn't know. there's a lot of things i don't know. some people don't know they're in a lot of trouble. some people don't know if they have enemies. some people don't know some other things about some people. and to all this, the school is a very interesting place to be for some people. shoutout to all my friends: ARE YOU READY?see you people tmr :) now, moving on to serious shit matters.To: YOU-who-should-not-be-namedI'm over and done playing the good friend. Don't expect anymore of that shit from me. Get this: assholes are more worthy of anything from me than YOU. Oh don't worry though, you're still on my list. I'm not that childish. It's the very last name, with so many lines drawn across it. But wait, I can't remember if it was your name I wrote down. If I'm not wrong, it was Bastard 'Friend' or something along that line. HAHA straight in the face! Oh well, you can't blame me, can you? Once bitten, twice shy. I'm so glad I say this: GOTOHELL with your fucking mind games.
p.s. so much for all the been-together-since-forever friendship.mood: ANGSTY & restless.
what the heck?! - tsk.
p.s.s. oh don't worry yourself about who this person is, it's no big deal. 1) it's not even worth it and 2) it's just not worth it at all. trust me on this.
(enter my name here)
Friday, January 09, 2009
i am liverpool
10:37:00 PMI thought of this someone today.
If you're thinking it's who I think you are, then no.
It's not at all - you're so wrong.
Don't worry, you're not the only one with a wrong guess.p.s. you're forever my forever.
Don't give up on me, Torres. I'll walk with you.
Show them who we are, and shut their foul mouths.
We are the champions; who are they?
LIVERPOOL FC
You'll never walk alone.
This is for you, SAM.
"You'll always be a part of me; I'm part of you indefinitely."
(enter my name here)
Thursday, January 08, 2009
world peace
10:01:00 PM
There never was a good war
or bad peace.
i don't know how the war started, or even why it has to come to this. i don't know what the issue really is to its smallest details, or who is on what side of the conflict. all i know is today, the innocent are dying. and it's not even their fault, or that they're even involved in the matter. people are dying everywhere and it's like it doesn't even matter. conflicts, wars, bombings, sufferings, screams, and even death - is this the end of mankind?In peace the sons bury their fathers,
but in war the fathers bury their sons.i was reading the newspaper the other day and what i read strike me real hard. i can't remember the exact words or the content of it all; (the interviewee was commenting about the war and blablabla) and it is something along this line that made me put down my cup of tea and ask myself:"What do we tell the mothers of the dead children? That their deaths don't matter at all?"I wouldn't know what to say either but i do know that whatever happens after this, nothing can make them come back. not even if justice came forward, or if the guilty was caught and charged. take a look at the death toll; it's like it's not going to stop at all. the numbers are just increasing at every second and i haven't even know why. by the time i get this figured out, or at least the people who are supposed to finally come up with a solution to it all, how many more lives would have been taken away? oh wait, include the words 'innocent' and 'young' there too. i hate to have to ask this, and i really am ashamed that i have to doubt this of the world but is there really no more peace in here?If you want to make peace,
you don't talk to your friends.
You talk to your enemies.If life were like the movies, then we definitely need all the heroes we can find. even the small, tiny, and never-growing-up powerpuff girls, and the TMNT, the power rangers, superman, ultraman, spiderman, batman, and even cicakman and all the other man yang sewaktu dengannya, all the way to Master Yoda. jengjengjeng - i wonder what happens if they really do come together. who's going to do the talking and call the shots?
p.s. and they say: save the cheerleader, save the world. LAUGH OUT LOUD.
(enter my name here)
outer space inner world
12:34:00 PM
OHMYGOD - HIP HIP HOORAY!
finally, geography year end assignment part 4 task 2 is DONE. 2 questons were done out of pure modesty, whereas the other 2 - for the sake of getting it over and done with. because nurulshafienasbintesalleh still has the part 2 summary work and the part 3 DRQ questions to think about plus a friggin' book report, and she's wasting too much brain cells on that oh-so-yesteryear assignment. and oh because i also still have econs essays, and some malay shit-comprehension to do too. it's all just halfway through left though - YES!
p.s. this post was to prove that i've been staying at home and forcing myself to feel good about it. but obviously, it's not working at all.5 things I'd die for right now:someone needs to get me on the first flight back to Earth.okay back to more assignments on the list - in other words, my oh-so-happening life. if you're thinking how i can lead such a boring life, then don't bother. because i'd gladly tell you that i am oh-so-broke and have parent-from-mars, which are good excuse in times of financial crisis or assignments-still-not-done periods because they force you to stay at home like a good girl from mars. i need my life back, even it means going to school for lectures and 50-minutes lessons for 6 periods. in other words, i miss being at school, though i don't really mean it.
(enter my name here)
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
walk my talk
12:08:00 AMIf I may quote:
"Just because I'm losing, doesn't mean I've lost."
Since I'm taking a step
back away from something,
I'll turn to look the other way.
So now I've taken a step forward,
only towards something else.
It's been better, don't you think?
{explanation: A fan I have become. Step away from Star Wars I really needed to; and come back to planet Earth I must. A bitch my internet is. With that, complete more assignments I now can. Discipline I have mastered; patience I've made friend with. Responsible mood I was in but not panic mode I am. Boring it may be, but for my own benefit it seems. So you see - a good girl nurulshafienasbintesalleh have been. Don't you agree too?}
p.s. raise up your hand if you buy my confession.
Don't worry, you silly friend.
Since I'm already on the road,
I won't stop - even for the red lights.(enter my name here)
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
the mind games
12:19:00 AM(enter my name here)
1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you:
More than words.
More than words.
More than words.
{since when did even colours get confusing?}
I let you get into me, then I let me get into you.
It's not my fault; it was my mistake.
I'm in your war now - like it or not.
I'm this coward, and I blame only you.
Tell me how, and I'll turn away right now.
Saturday, January 03, 2009
love is red
8:20:00 PM"Aku takut."
"Takut apa?"
"Aku takut kamu dikalahkan kenangan."
Cerita yang terjadi di sini, biarkan saja cuma terjadi di sini.Simpan saja, semua cerita tentang kita.p.s. inspired by movie Cinta Pertama.
p.s.s. no pun intended, serious.(enter my name here)
recording in progress
12:46:00 AM5 things nurulshafienasbintesalleh hate:
1. The taste of coffee and green tea
2. The smell of cigarettes
3. Not-so-clean shaven boys
4. The feeling of vomiting
5. Being broke and penniless{This is what I do when I shouldn't be doing it. This is to proof what really happens to me when I see the word 'geography'. Yes sir, I daydream. And they don't stop there - they go on like magic. Whenever I do geography, I get distracted far too easily. And I still remember this: I can be wide awake and talk like I owe the school. But come geography lesson, I'd be somewhat tired and my body aches all over. Then when the this-fashion teacher talks, I'd be yawning and yawning and yawning... you know how the story ends. Sleeping in class is not a crime; talking is.}And here's some other facts that's got me thinking like a five year old child asking for ice-cream - in other words still in distracted mode.
1. Did you know that Lost World really do exist?
2. Did you know that Juliet wasn't Romeo's first love?
3. Did you know that singer Ne-Yo have a chinese mother?
4. Did you know I have never ever gone anywhere by plane?
5. Did you know my grandfather can speak English far better than I ever could in my whole life?
"Strike a pose Rosemary Fox, you're way too shy again."
"You too, Elizabeth Sawyer - show me your teeth."
I always don't make sense, do I? Did I tell you that you're not the only one confused about me being oh-so-confusing? And and and I bore you too much with my oh-so-happening life, right? No worries, no harm done, no loss. Okay, back to geography love.
{Oh wait, no brain detected - Error 404.}
p.s. Mari Mambo soon, real soon.
(enter my name here)
Friday, January 02, 2009
who let the dog out?
8:28:00 PM"Aku merasa seperti ada yang hilang,
tanpa tahu apa yang telah aku temukan.
Aku merasa seperti telah menemukan,
tapa tahu apa yang aku cari.
Dan aku seperti masih mencari,
tanpa tahu apa yang telah hilang."
I'm sick, from all this Sherlock game.
Press here to quit.
oh i bought this vest just now at a discount! and oh i wanted to buy the others too, which includes the daily planner, the shoes, and oh yes the bag. {actually there's a whole list of a lot more stuffs but i'll be patient.} omg nurulshafienasbintesalleh really need to get her money matters sorted out.
i got a tip-off saying there'll be study date at mccafe dte tomorrow. i'll think about it, since he said he didn't know whether there will really be serious-shit study. i, on the other hand, need more than just serious-serious study, i need to pass up the late assignment already! oh it's A301-S417 kind of thing, but there'll be crashers for sure. good, the more the merrier.geography geography geography - since when did my life revolve around not-so-useless late-night-early-mornings-until-afternoon assingments? p.s. happily-ever-after don't happen in my life; whereas fairytales are the biggest lies ever told.(enter my name here)
wires go haywire
1:00:00 AMWhen what you feel is confusing you,
then what's confusing about what you feel?
This isn't really that confusing.
Please don't ask me to elaborate. I just need someone who can pay attention to me now, give me some of that nurulshafienasbintesalleh time and tell me to get back of the first flight to Earth. Maybe someone from the ever-so-famous lost world? {Funny I mention you, right?} For all things, there's a reason, except this shit. Oh and zztzzt moments are so in the trend. If you don't have one, you don't have a life. Keep up with the time; snap snap.
Oh and just another note - never think of the impossible because impossible is nothing. Why waste your precious time on it? Like my post - it's nothing but pure crap and utter rubbish for the fools.
I have a date with D today, another study time with A301 with the tempting choc fondue and the long-postponed trip with the ATTP BOD. What can I say - coolest. I need a planner, and an assistant. Yesterday I dreamt I lived in a castle.p.s. You really think I'd blog for nothing? Read me.shoutout to parents from mars: I'm 18 this year - just in case you forgot. and oh did i tell you i don't really have a life? Then we're cool too.
p.s.s. green is definitely a signal, not a sign.
(enter my name here)
Thursday, January 01, 2009
aloha zero-nine
11:33:00 PMHAPPY NEW YEAR!
so, the new year wasn't exactly the way i planned it to be, but at least it didn't really turn out the way i expected it to be. confused much? nevermind. i'm not here to give you the long post of what nurulshafienas have in mind for the new year, or even whats' her regrets for 2008 because i think i'll just keep it to myself. besides, aren't i doing you a favour here? or maybe next time, when i'm in the vintage-walking-down-memory-lane mood.TO ALL my friends - new or old: 2009 is here people! let's rock the world with each other y'all! let good times roll forever. life's only this long, so let's live it and give our best okay? don't stop those laughs or the stomach-cramps-aftermath and continue on being bitches to each other till we drop. why? oh well, because you know you love me. and remember: 'the 'MOS' line is so mine. but since you're desperate for attention, you can have that rotten-egg line! if you get what i mean; if not, let's laugh out loud and play along. besides, who needs lines that's so yesteryear? oh wait, i forgot - because you're not 'us'.
did i tell you i am a proud MJI member, a RADIOS girl, another SPL and one of the ATTP board of directors? because we rock shit.
geography assignments are still yet to be completed, although the datedue was 2359, 31 dec 2008. but whattheheck! what can the school do to me? A301 was online just moments before the stroke of midnight and we had a mass convo. of course, with the presence by another lonely soul. it was definitely crazy-you-cannot-look-away-from-the-screen kind of convo. though there was only 9 of us, seriously it felt like there was at least 20 people. oh oh and the whole of A301 had the same display pictures! how sweet - i certainly didn't imagined celebrating new year with them over MSN! so you see; you don't need those fireworks or the all-night-long party. just extremely-out-of-their-mind friends and the clock will do.
LAUGH OUT LOUD - klik kekek or borak buddies?! seriously, nadirah needs to think of a better name fast. because there were even suggestions for klik kentot and berak buddies. obviously because amongst us, whom i shall be discreet about, there are some obscene people who are always telling people of their private business. nevermind, this is just getting too irrelevant and unrelated to anything.
oh and i owe you people a report on Mari Mambo. yes plus the many wild-colourful pictures taken. OMG you won't believe my parents. i had been begging them since God-knows-when and then on the day itself, my father gave me the green light at 3pm! No, I didn't waste time asking him to repeat it. Record time: 20 minutes later, I was out of the house - ready to PARTY.
to whom it may concern: please please do not put me in a spot again. i really don't like this, whenever you do it. it's irritating, to the point that if i may be honest, we'd become sworn enemies. don't make me say things i'd regret. i'm sorry is all i can say. but on the other hand, if it's okay is all you feel, obviously you're no good at lying. don't you dare blame me for those cancelled plans. i told you my reasons and obviously, you don't understand me. it's just not fair since you don't know how it feels like to be me, not even the slightest idea. weren't you the one who said those ever-so-famous lines were for my own good? what about now? still, thank you for at least trying. one day when we don't talk, i hope you are sorry too.
okay enough of the emo-spoiled-mood-gone-wrong shoutout. oh well, this is it. as you can see, i'm definitely not in the right mood to say anything, even though that's quite contradicting. okay then, i'll put the final fullstop here.
oh if this post is already making you sleep, you may go. don't continue, since there's nothing about you anymore.(enter my name here)I'm pathetic and stupid, aren't I?
I can do better than you.
I let myself down so bad,
and then you let me down too.
Trust me boy, once you're gone,
you're nothing more than plain memories.
And if I get my chance too,
I'll dump you.
Then I'd be the one to ask:
How come you never wonder too?
How come I'm always the one to?
No, shut your foul mouth.
Ever heard of too little too late?