I want to ride in one of those things at SENTOSA :)))

But for now, my finance minister is broke too.

Going back to reality, I have been spending more-than-expected time chatting up and meeting with friends wherever and whenever possible. To those who I still owe meetings and movies, fret not. Once my wallet is full again, I am all yours baby (i hope). I hope Rahavan will ask for another date again since I won't be able to make it tomorrow. That sweet darling sure knows how to impress his ever-faithful-and-waiting girls.

Speaking of work, to my friends who can be VERY forgetful (and this is really getting on my nerves as much as it is getting on yours) : I am not available on weekends and during the festive periods. Don't anyone bother to ask me again or I swear I will not agree to go out with (whoever) anymore. Of course I will inform whoever whoever i/c about my shifts but that is all. And I have a feeling that some events will be kept on hold/TBC because of this whole thing. So if majority of you already can make it for whatever, please do not wait for me. I can always join in at a later time/date/place. Having said that, don't anyone dare cancel anything just because I cannot make it. Put the blame on me in any way, directly or not, and you will face a different side of nurulshafienasbintesalleh. Don't test my patience here people. And if my words here are too harsh, let this be just the preview. Peace, world peace.

Anyway, I am starting to feel guilty for not sending off my brother properly on Friday. I should have tag along and not go back to sleep. Mother already misses that son too much and it shows. Mother took a picture of Brother with his new hommies, but it's too grainy. And last night, she looked so sad when she was looking at the picture. Suddenly, I nearly tear up too, because ________________________. Before that, her phone lag a bit and she was so scared that something happened to the picture and it was already 2am when she asked for my help! Mom's love - it still surprises me sometimes.

Ending off with random things to say to many random people who-shall-not-be-named:

1. Walk the talk girlfriend. Been there, done that. Impossible is really nothing. You can do it. You cannot just want to do it, you have to start acting like it.

2. Time change. Seasons change. People change. This is inevitable. You cannot stop it. You have to realise that while people enter your life and bring much joy, there will be others who leave even without a note saying goodbye or thank you. Don't worry, you will be fine.

3. Life goes one, like it or not. Look on the bright side. Didn't they say that the other side is always greener?

4. Whoever invented/started the cold war is a very stupid person. Now, people everywhere are following his steps. He doesn't talk, she doesn't talk. When does this end?

5. I don't understand why I have keep on pleasing people, when they obviously don't deserve it. Ah yes, that word: _______. My tolerance level is wearing thin and someone is in big trouble. HELP!

Playing help-doctor is no fun, it's a real deal here. Do my advices help? Idk.

I really talk too much. I am not surprised if no one bothers to read at all.

(enter my name here)

I cannot stand talking to people who get distracted easily. I am the kind of person who needs to (at least) think that you are giving me some of your precious time and attention while I do my story-telling. If you cannot even have any eye contact with me by the time I end my not-so-short stories, then I won't be pleased to continue our conversations further either. Instead, sometimes, I would be even more glad to end our conversation halfway because I want to just get far away from you! That is, if you had notice. Seriously - if you keep getting distracted by anything and everything else, then go settle your pathetic issues first before coming to me. It's not like I am obliged to tell you all that you want to know, or that I am dying to report to you my daily happenings. But since you were asking about it so much, I thought you would then try to listen to me even if nothing goes into that empty space inside your head. But it seems like your attention span is even shorter than anyone I know. Let me warn you again that I am a very impatient person at times. And I have no interest in repeating that particular part of my story again and again, just so that you would know exactly where I left off. Or in this case, where you "un-intentionally" kept on talking to other people while I am desperately trying to end my story.

And FYI, if you are that boring of a person, then please leave me out and do not even bother to ask me out. I have no time or interests to just waste my time without getting anything done. Yes I am having a tight budget too but at least I know enough to make the most of my days out. Even if I did want to do anything boring, I wouldn't be doing the same old same old with same old same old. Don't you ever want to do anything else? You were the one who insists I come up with plans, but you will always have some stupid reactions to every single thing I say. So, if the person I am talking about here feels guilty in any way, then I am so satisfied! I'd feel so accomplished since the end of As, really. Of course, for the sake of "our" friendship, I shall not explicitly describe you in any way.

I can be nice honey, but don't push your luck! I am this close to really being brutally honest :))) p.s. The person I am talking about is not the person 90% of you think it is, if you know who I mean.

Okay, I am done blabbering. Out.

(enter my name here)

Taken from notebookdoodles.bs (by SafiahAlias)

So this is it. I have decided.
I don't want to think of what happened yesterday,
or even of what tomorow may hold,
or the regrets that I may have before and after this.
I only want to think of today, one day at a time.

Parents -
When they get angry, you will somehow be able to cool them down.
But when they merajok, no aiyoyo thambi and no aiseh man bedah can be of much help. It's only oh HOLY, and hope that they will not put you through much trouble. Especially if they're much older, sensitivity becomes an issue far too easily.

But parents, being parents will always forgive you no matter what. The child that they have raised all these years may have crushed their hopes and dreams and hurt their hearts so deep and so painfully. But when that child falls down, they will be the very people that asks: Are you okay?