During this intensive period before the _, I made several discoveries.
1. English Literature considers the view of liberal women living in a modern world.Malay Literature studies the idea of modern women living in a liberal world. Isn't it amazing how these things work to confuse you? But all in all, I never really got the idea of a feministic world.
2. I don't exactly have a plan on what I really want to do immediately after the _. So now, I've wasted an hour writing down the list of possible things but only one rational idea stood out: Sleep Marathon.
3. Sometimes, I don't feel like giving up, but I just want to do nothing, which isn't exactly the easiest thing to do. Sometimes, I don't feel like giving up, but I just want to watch life pass me by and see how much I can let it go to waste. But I hate waiting so this is impossible. Other times (like today), I want to give up but even that isn't so easy afterall! tsk, WTH khhrrr :(
p.s. I want to set up a School of Insane-Chatterbox-and-GossipGirl-Like-Me in future :)))
My favourite moment starts at 2.02 - for 15seconds, Oh HOLY HOT.
Words of Stranger from a Friend to a Crush. Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't? Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't? You fall deeper with each passing day, But try to hide it in every possible way. He's only a friend, and nothing else - That's the lie you keep telling yourself. You keep on saying he's just a bud, But deep inside you're falling in love. You get so giddy when you meet his eyes, But keep reminding yourself that it isn't right. A simple glance turns into a stare, But you pretend that you don't care. It's "not right" for you two to be. Is that why you hide it so no one can see? But how long will you pretend? Keep lying that he's just a friend? Perhaps your feelings you can never show. Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know. Your friendship can't be risked over this, so being his girl is an impossible wish. -Momei Qu
Thanks J, such honest words written.
The more I try to run away, the more I find myself coming closer to where I first began. Maybe it was my fault, maybe this "joke" has gotten way too far, just maybe I am crazy. They laughed at me, they think I'm pathetic. They don't understand and find it absurd, they can be true. They did nothing wrong, they listened and then try to dig it out from me. But I have no answers, no explanations, no reasons, no whatsoever-excuse-you-think-I-may-have, nothing - this is just a feeling.
From now on, I want to be the first one - to walk away, to not look back, to not reply and to (of all other things) stop ______.
The H1Maths Class 2009 (You should have been been there Shatun!)
Of all props, J took her Tampines One fan in this photoshoot. The holy-kemolly-MJI cake Literally LOL. The classic poses. SIlly things girls do. Silly things girls laugh about. Silly things girls think they are (or want to be.) Akhir kata: Tidak ada satu pertemuan yang abadi. Seperti pertemuan, tidak ada perpisahan yang abadi. Semuanya bergantung pada masa. Setiap yang bermula pasti berakhir. Yang datang akan pergi, Yang patah akan tumbuh, Yang hilang akan berganti. Tetapi, dengan setiap sesuatu yang berakhir itu, adalah detik permulaan sesuatu yang baru. Selamat Maju Jaya rakan-rakanku :))) (this was supposed to be a a happy i-still-remember-the-1st-day-we-first-met kind of post but somehow plans change.)
Haru Haru - Big Bang You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
Don't look back and leave Don't find me again and live on Because I have no regrets from loving you Take only the good memories I can bear it in some way I can stand in some way You should be happy if you are like this
"I love you" means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even when you’re in a bad mood, or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. “I love you” means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping you feel the same way for me.
Not that I have any experince, but I wonder: which saint can actually fully live by the above quote? khhrrr (insider version of pffttt)
Shafienas: I think I can blend in with the walls. (quickly hugs pillar) Mr Yeo: Can someone please offer her a hug so that she doesn't need to rely on an innate object for one?
Shafienas: Auntie why you laugh at me? Auntie: I want to laugh looking at you! So hot, wear sweater???!!! Random teacher: Haven't you heard of global warming? (I just came out from an air-con'd room.)
I'm done throwing tantrums at parents who can't seem to understand why I always want to go out. I'm done pleasing people who throw tantrums at me because I can't go out. I'm done telling myself to go out with so and so because I didn't the last time too. I'm done asking myself to help out at home often instead of staring at the books.
I'm over being on any one side nor sitting on the fence. I should really just go away, literally. Followers anyone? 1st stop: Venice 2nd stop: S Korea 3rd stop: New Zealand
Sinner - Tae Yang If something happens to me, know that it's your fault. Because you wanted bad things to happen to me. If you met someone else, can you please be unhappy? I'll pray for it.
Gone way too far from the start But how much nearer are we now? Comes in close at the end But how much further have we become?
Seriously hot and cold right now:
Calm and confused, yet happily moody.
What have I done to ever deserve this? Shit, it's eating me up inside :(
Sabar dan Ikhlas, nurulshafienasbintesalleh. Sabar dan Ikhlas, nurulshafienasbintesalleh. Sabar dan Ikhlas, nurulshafienasbintesalleh.
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