Labels: and who am i?
It's really hard,
and frustrating and tiring;
having to please people,
again, and again, and again,
all the time.
N: Abang Is, you sakit, is it?
I: Huh? Why are you asking?
N: Because you always look penat.
I: That's because I am actually.
N: You are what? Penat or sakit?
I: (grins)...
CH: Budak-budak JC1 saya, bila stress sikit je, terus sakit.
S: (turns to W) Ye ke? Aku sakit, baru stress.
W: Dorang sakit lain. Kau sakit ape?!
S: (grins)...
It must be in the genes.
Like you said it, bro:
It's a Salleh thing to do (winks and pouts mouth).(enter my name here)
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Labels: and who am i?
Where the sun rises and sets,
where it seems like a long road,
where trees grow as tall as the sky,
where it drizzles slightly and suddenly,
when my head needs a shoulder,
when I smile at the camera,
when the dark clouds come,
when the silence is too loud,
with your sparkling eyes,
with the old brown bag,
with a simple smile,
I'd see you there.
I will be somewhere I can always see you, even if you don't see me.
I want to be somewhere around there, wherever that may be.(enter my name here)
I love you Abu, and thank you for the gone-home-before-end-of-colloseum, cup-walker-treat, out-of-tune-singing and walked-back-home moments today.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Labels: the world as it is
VISAGE WAS A SUCCESS!
hip hip horaaaaaayyyy!
{I'm just going to upload random pictures for now.}
BTW, thank you so much for the lovely darlings who came.
Days before THE Big Day:
Sound and Lights CREW
Publicity CREW
All the single ladies in the house.
CAST of Lady Audley's Secret (not all though)
The Make-Up i/c
OH i adore the programme booklet.
Aren't they cute?
Feel the intensity of the moment, all just for the right timing - the perfection.
The First 2, as we all call it.
I was infatuated with Luke Marks and his goatie that night.
Barney was in the house too!
And then, before we knew it, all the hard work and staying back till late came down to THE DAY: 24 May 2009 - Visage. the next 15 hours was just drama, drama and drama, NON-STOP.
The props/Set CREW - I salute them, like seriously.
Having lunch before heading off to YMS.
Rest was a luxury!
However, our spirit was still high, higher than what the temperature might have been!
The zone - we just had to take a few art-futsy pictures, even during the practice right before the show started! oh and this was taken when the house was going to open in 5 minutes, and the sound system still sounded like crap for the matinee show!
If not for that heat-emitting lamp, and that there wasn't a 2nd-level, I swear I must have had one of the best seats in the house.
The assistant co-director, Current president of MJC Drama.
OH but something bad happened. Something really bad.
Action comes before thinking.
This is more than OH HOLY KEMOLLY!
This is the time when witty, quick-thinking friends with a high threshold for pain and firm palms come in handy! THANKS babes, you girls rock. I can't be anymore clumsy and careless than this.
More pictures to be uploaded once I've gotten the pictures from Hannah, Masyitah and Jannah.
Some day, I'm going to regret ever doing anything.
But I won't regret that I've done some things that I did.
If there's anything I want to remember,
I'd only wish that you'd remember it too.(enter my name here)
Friday, May 22, 2009
Labels: the world as it is
It's how you look at it, and how you choose to read it. (enter my name here)
It's how you tilt your head around; up, down, left, right.
Think about it.
Okay, then just give up.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Labels: the world as it is
3 things in the world that tells me
happiness still exist in this world:
1. Food! I had 3 hours break today, and I couldn't decide whether I should stay in school to do some stuffs before I get tired from all the drama and couldn't be bothered to do any, or should I go home and sleep while I have the time to. But then, having Safiah around and her crazy randomness (cravings, feeling bloated, rantings yada yada yada and whatnots) and being the influential devil that she always is, we girls decided to eat out at QiJi. And then all of a sudden, I felt this urge to eat my heart out. And so, I had all my 3 favourites of all time: Laksa and Popiah roll at QiJi with Strawberry milk tea. OH HOLY - i couldn't stop smiling all the way back to school and even during class. So thank you Safiah, and sorry to the two boys whom I heard, were searching for us after we not-so-unintentionally left them.
2. Music! especially the ones that make you feel as if they were written for you and your current life experiences..[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road,
he lost his soul
to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so,
cold as the winter wind when it breeze, yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, while I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely
[Chorus]
How could you be so Dr. Evil,
you bringin' out a side of me
that I dont know...
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me
[Chorus]
Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night....
[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road,
he lost his soul
to a woman so heartless...
Heartless is just so ________. and next in line, falling slowly. And oh I guess what makes me smile even wider is the fact that the American idol winner KRIS ALLEN sings these songs! I can go crazy just imagining 'him' singing it. This is wrong, but I am just appreciating god's gift for beauty.3. Korean things!The boyfriends, the many many many dramas, and even just speaking in it make me go ohh-lala. The songs, and all the dancing, is like no other. And oh, after freaking out by the thought that my 20-year old brother puts the song Nobody in his currently Top 10 songs, I am still dealing with the fact that everyone (okay fine, almost everyone) in school is actually singing it! Oh please, don't start with the dancing! Boys, please do not even attempt to try the dancing.
So you see, I told you happiness still exists in this world. So I should just keep on smiling, even if I'm not really smiling or even if I really feel like slapping _______'s face. I just don't need some people and their crap. For they, are just stupid, useless, selfish, pathetic, annoying, arrogant bastards who are pretentious and oh-so-fake, and I really do pity them for having such a sad life!And for that i just answered a GP question, given by Abu:
"What is life, if full of care; there's no time to stop and stare."
Yes, I am that ignorant.
And if you think so too right now, then "get out of my uncaring, _______ face."
a side note: this is for that friend who asked me that question -
it's funny how small little things can touch you. it's funny how small little things can be remembered, cherished and treasured. it's funny how a simple 'thank you' can mean so much more than what it really means. it's funny how saying 'sorry' can be so darn hard, and somewhat a take on your pride and ego. it's funny how simple questions like 'how are you?' or 'are you okay?' and whatnot can make you feel as if that person is really going through whatever you are feeling, even though he/she is just another stranger or even if all you can reply back is 'i don't know.' or even better shaking your head or walk/look away. and in the end, it is really these small little things that you thought were oh-so-small and insignificant, that will be the one that'd make you remember how much you miss that person who always did it to/for you, and how much you truly regret not doing these small little things back in return. it'd be one of your biggest disappointments, for just seeing the big picture instead. i won't be on that losing end, but you will.(enter my name here)
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Something just happened and I swear it's the freakiest thing that's ever happened.I was happily watching Boys Before Flowers at mysoju.com on the laptop in my brother's room, sitting nicely on the bed with the earphones attached. The bed is parallel to the big windows which is about 50cm away, and at that time, the windows wasn't closed and the curtains wasn't drawn. And anyone from the next block, would have been able to see me sitting on the bed clearly. I swear I wasn't in any obscene position.Suddenly, I felt this warm feeling on my cheek, and I saw a red light at the corner of my eye. I looked down at the floor and I saw the red light there. Obviously, someone was observing me and then decided to put a laser spot on me! My heart almost stopped beating. I quickly stood up and looked out of the window. I searched every floor of the opposite block and tried to detect any movement. Since I am already on the 7th floor and the fact that the beam was from an angle, it narrowed my search a little. There was nothing, there was no one anywhere. I stayed there for about a few minutes, because I wanted to see the culprit. Thinking like one, I thought that the person would have checked out the prey again after the attack, if he had not enough fun already. But then, there was nothing. Then, though still feeling dissatisfied, and freaked out and jumpy, I just closed the windows and drew the curtains. I sat on the bed, stunned. That experience, in Mr Chen's words, just smacked the yellow out of my teeth! OH HOLY-KEMOLLY! I am never going to sit on that bed near the windows ever again. And right now, I am sitting at the very center of the house, trying to assure myself that I am not dreaming. I don't care if this sounds overly exaggerated, because I just told you exactly what had happened and the fact that there was a laser beam on me just meant someone was observing me, period.And even up till now, I still feel the goosebumps, and hands just can't stop sweating.{Oh and btw, mysoju.com is LOVELOVELOVE.}p.s. okay maybe I do sound a little too 007-ish, but WTH!(enter my name here)
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Labels: the world as it is
okay this is going to be one long post. because i'm in the mood to have one and because i don't want to study for the globalization lecture test, approximately 10hours from now.
mother's day 2009 for the Hamid family was one memorable dinner for all. firstly because of the drama at the supposed restaurant that we had reserved 32 seats for and also because, i found myself loving every single one of their company. be it young or old, the Hamid family have one thing in common - a great sense of humour. so when you multiply that by 32, it's something i won't easily forget for a long time to come.
oh i've got to tell you the drama that happened. so my very hippie aunt of all other aunts reserved 32 seats for the family at this particular restaurant. we were supposed to be served at 7.30 pm. however, by 7.40pm, half the family still haven't got seats. what's the bloody use of reserving then? and they gave us the most stupid reason ever: because it's mother's day so do understand. hello?! firstly, it's because it's mother's day that we are gathered there and then, and secondly, it's because we understood the situation so well, that we booked the place on friday! and they tried to please us all; what they didn't know was that my father used to work in this service line and he knew every single tactic that they were using.
alright, here's the real drama: whilst half the family wasn't already seated, they started serving food, because it was already 7.45pm. lucky thing they gave us some drinks as soon as some of us were already seated. then they started serving rice! my father quickly told them to take it back, because there's still others whose still not seated. even after being scolded for that, they then served the other dishes, one by one. my father was already extremely angry, and i swear i thought he was going to curse the waiters. he said: " Why are you serving?! I told you not to serve! Take back! Take back all! The plate is not even warm! I don't want to eat cold food! take back in!" those who were there, including me, just kept quiet and started giving each other 'the look'. then one of the playful uncles said to his sister: " Eh! Why are the drinks so cold? How come the ice melted already?" the funny thing was that they were serving us cold drinks! he said so only to imitate my father. it was funny like hell - and we just couldn't stop imitating my father since.
then after some more brouhaha, we finally cancelled our reservations and left. next stop: Mak's Place! oh but before that, the Hamid brothers (a.k.a. the fathers) even suggested going to the beach and wait till 10pm for dinner! WTH! we are already starving before this! and oh, over at Mak's Place, i guess it was just my (bad) luck to have to sit with the younglings.
he's not just your average cute boy - seriously.
cam-whoring definitely runs in the family.
Mothers' Association.
idk how much we ate, the food just kept coming and coming.
oh many of the plates had to be taken away because there was no space for more food to come.
our mothers with Mr Hamid.
then, it was goodbye, because everyone was either too full or already falling asleep after the oh-so-heavy dinner.
so that was last saturday. and before i knew it, it's already thursday today. and in a few hours' time, it's friday. time really flies! well, maybe except during maths period when the teachers seems to be singing a lullaby instead of teaching. suddenly, i miss the teacher whose voice would go so loud 1 minute and softer the next.
on a brighter note, i am done for NAPFA! that's the last 5 stations of my life and the last 2.4km run that i'm ever going to do! and GTH if i got a bronze, so what?! i can't stop smiling just at the thought of it! this is the moment i've been waiting for ever since the year started, because most of my friends are so over with NAPFA the day they did it in sec 4! oh those days - i miss secondary school. i really really do - Man should start inventing a time machine, of all other things.
anyways, drama rehersals are really tiring me out. 24 may better come soon. and speaking of soon, till then, i'll be in my own little bubble, just as jan and saf were for their SYF. but i guess i'm a lilltle bit disappointed. i just don't feel 'sad/empty/lost' even up till now, when drama is going to be over for me. memories, are just memories, and i just don't feel anything. this is just so unexpected of me; to not feel even slightly sad that it's finally going to be over. oh well maybe time will tell me otherwise, who knows.
speaking of unexpected-ness, 'my fireman' really surprised me just now. well, he's really sweet and nice and everything and he knows i call him 'my fireman'. i thought (or was it a lot of other people?) that he was scared of me, that's why he would quickly say 'hi' to me as soon as he saw me. but seriously, that is not the case. i was on my way home just now, and i saw him. and this is what happened; jannah was the witness.
Shafienas: (from some distance) eh let me ask you something.
Fireman: (come closer) okay what?
Shafienas: Are you, like, scared of me or something?
Fireman: Huh? No, i respect you.
at that moment, it was just so sweet of him. i swear i didn't expect him to say that, but he did, and i respect him for respecting me. i always thought that respect had to be earned, and he did it really well. that answer wasn't something i expect from any of them, especially from this particular person who looks at me like he wants to swallow me ever since 'that study room incident' happened. sheesh, what a pathetic loser! it's not like i did anything, and it's not like it wasn't true! back to my fireman, he's 'illegal' for me - if you get what i mean.
moving on, oh i can't wait for saturday - Haniffa's open house. finally, ATTP are going to meet up, and this was the supposed meet-up that we owe each other ever since the year started. ok wait, actually i was the one who owe them the meet-up. and speaking of which, RADIOS are still supposed to meet for Seoul Garden, but again because of me, it was cancelled. but we are finally going to meet again on 6th june, at A's sister's wedding! and the night before, we'd (Sec 4 Express 2007?) be meeting again for manifestasi - yay is an understatement!
okay i'd better start reading those notes, or at least touch them. or else tomorrow, while people are busy writing their answers, i'd be doing that (look picture above). i really wonder how that guy in green can sleep oh-so-peacefully. but then again, you can never stop anyone from his sleep, anywhere, anytime.
"I am not falling for you again. I am not falling for you again. I am not falling for you again. I am not falling for you again. I am not falling for you again."(enter my name here)