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Thank You So Much Borak Buddies.Life is the second scariest thing that I've ever gone through, and I'm not even halfway done with it. I just want the year to end because too many unfortunate things have happened and I'm tired of having to deal with them. Uncertainty is something I've never learned to cope with, and yet this life is full of it. Oh God, give me the strength to be strong, especially now.Through this, I'm fortunate enough to see that I've got friends whom I can always fall back on. The friends who can make me angry when they take my seat in lecture theatres, or when they don't seem to understand the importance of not forgetting to inform me things when I'm not around - they aren't always all bad. Because everytime whenever I need them the most, without fail, they will make me smile again. They'd take my mind of those unfortunate events and do little stuffs like make a love letter into the shape of a boat and give it to my 'scandal' to give it to me in a funny way. These borak buddies of mine are the treasures that I've found after 2 years in MJC. Allah sahaja yang mampu balas budi baik rakan-rakanku.Speaking of we're-in-this-together-kind of friends, I was lepak-ing with my A.I. when she brought up the 3 things that has always made her think, which in turn made me think:As you can see, the things that she mentioned are not only strangely unique, but it's just something that we don't usually bother ourselves with. And whenever I talk to her, she will always have questions that even I have never thought about. Although they may be lame or sungguh-tidak-perlu, but she makes it fun to answer them because she's not someone that can be easily influenced/convinced by the shit that you put forth. (I don't know why I'm saying this.)Hence, I can conclude that this is how life is. It can turn you around, twist you, crush you or confuse you. It can hit you real hard one day, or it can even tear you down again and again. Life isn't all about rainbows. But, there will be times when you can just stop and look back in your life, and realise that there are joy in this world. There are times when you'd jump up and down the stairs, or singing to every tune that comes into your mind because you competing with another friend who is also singing to every tune that comes to his mind. What's important is that you just stick to your guns and face every shit that comes head on. What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.All in all, I just want to say that while life have proven to me that friends may come and go, there are also others that will always be there. I'm reminded of what my dear Ms Yeo said: When you go there, you will meet new people, and these will be the people who will always feel what you feel and understand you even more than you can understand yourself. You will never feel scared, and you are never alone because they are there too.Borak Buddies 08-09 - ILU.(enter my name here)
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
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It's been oh-so-long. School is nothing but hectic. If I can have any superpowers right now, I'd ask for the inability to fall asleep, or the power to not feel tired But that wouldn't make me human. (My running nose needs a plumber immediately, and my oh-so-big head should stop being in error mode.)Even if you're tired,even if you're restless,even if you're far away,or even if you're late,(not that I'd be right there,)but when our eyes meet,then look at only me.p.s. No, I am not referring to anyone, seriously.p.s.s. Not that I think anyone would read this.I am going to make it.I have to do this.I need to finish the race.(enter my name here)
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
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Lesson learnt:I don't understand why I was the way I am, and as much as I wish I wasn't, I'm disappointed with myself today. Shame on you, nurulshafieasbintesalleh. Instead of going around telling people that "what's not meant to be is not meant to be; what's meant to be is meant to be", start telling that to yourself every morning and every night.Oh God, I suck.(enter my name here)
Sunday, August 16, 2009
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"Being born a boy don't make you a man."
A phonecall is only as long as the other party is willing to talk too. A phonecall is only as long as the other party don't just hang up in the middle of the conversation. And it's nothing if the call was intentionally ended the moment there's a ringing tone. Weren't you the one who said you hate cowards the most? The pot calling the kettle black. All that needs to be said have to be heard and understood. Don't just be like a faulty tape recorder and think you're the boss here. By the way, I'm not done 'blabbering' just because you are done 'assuming'. I'm annoying and stubborn, and I simply love arguing things my way.I took this off my brother's post (because it sums up everything else that I want to say):
Compromise:
It is not a one-time option.
It is not about getting what you want.
It is about giving in, looking at the whole situation to salvage it, making both ends meet so it doesn't have to end. Compromise and resolve a situation, compromise and reach a conclusion, compromise and put that huge ego aside even if it kills you to.
It is neither easy nor difficult, so compromise.(enter my name here)
Suddenly, I have a worthy elder brother, who proves himself to be (or at least almost) a worthy man. Good job, and I think you're better off single.
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
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Schools are like our second home. Oh yes of course, except the part where there are thieves amongst us! Which part of the holistic education provided by this great school to make their students learned man and women of calibre taught you to be thieves?This is more than just an individual job. It was definitely a good team effort - full points for the excellent teamwork and cooperation. It's sad you guys didn't get an award or something for the job well done. It couldn't be just a coincidence that at least 5 other people had their belongings, which were in their bags, stolen at the same time same place, right?It's ironic that we are students of a respected JC. These supposedly high-order intellectual human beings had other talents that the whole school population wasn't aware of, and they managed to show it off yesterday. I wonder what major you're going to do in University later - Double Major in Mass Stealing?Even if you had wanted to take my MP3 which was only 3-months-old-and-I-hadn't-even-used-half-of-its-4GB-memory, why did you have to steal my handphone too? Was it like a steal-1-and-get-1-free kind of offer? My handphone was not only old, it was bulky and crappy! Is it me or do you dumb, stupid assholes who stole my handphone too, have some trouble differentiating what the in-trend models are right now?All of us had placed our bags in front of the ODAC room before going for P.E. We were happily at the field, and the only thing that separates me and my bag was the width of the track. My bag was with 2 other bags too, and was even covered by my skirt. I guess it was suay, or rather, it was like a mob-flash-stealing event and I just happened to be one of those random victims. While I really do not have any intention of pointing fingers to anyone, I can't help but wonder who it could possibly be. Many people could have walked past that area - people on the field, from the gym, walking towards the canteen or the toilet etc. But throughout the entire time - before, during and after my PE lesson - there was a group of people who had always been there. If you were me, who do you think would have been the most likely suspects behind these disappearing belongings? Siapa makan chili, dialah yang terasa pedas, betul tak cik abang?But yeah, my handphone and MP3 were stolen, and I cannot imagine surviving any longer than 1 month without these necessities. (As much as I hate to admit that I am that dependent on technology, I still have to admit that they are very useful.) And as for those greedy thieves, well there's always retributions and bad karma.You can throw away my sim card for all I care, I just want my MP3 and the aeroplane keychain on my handphone back.(enter my name here)
Monday, August 03, 2009
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Advertisements have been such a great pleasure to watch these days, although I may not fully understand the link in between. Take time to watch it, guaranteed amusement in return.Funky:Hilarious:Inspirational:Amazing how it leaves you speechless, isn't it? Tell me about it.(enter my name here)
believe in you
8:08:00 PMYesterday was the 40th day since my late grandmother passed away (Al-fateha to her once again.) May Allah s.w.t. bless her soul, amin. This may be too late for me to say, or even be left unknown to the person I wish to say it to, but still I want to put this down:My dear friend, please have faith in yourself, as I've always had in you. Please don't ever give up and do what you've always done best. Your success is something I've never once doubted, and I know that even if this is going to leave you tired or almost not making it, you are still going to do just fine. You don't know this but you're the reason I am where I am now. So, if you're going to give up, especially now, then you're basically making me give up too. I need you to make it there, for the both of of us. As a friend, this much - I'd pray for you.on a very random sidenote: I still don't get how the heart works. It's funny how the heart can contradict itself in a matter of seconds. It's strange why the heart can come up with reasons that are just so illogical and immature. I still don't understand why the heart does things that it does. Ok this is going nowhere.I am so thankful that I have friends who are extremely hilarious (regardless of whether I'm laughing with them or at them.)Elliot: Yeah, we went to urbandictionary.com and typed in your name. And you got all the random stuffs like a fish...Shafienas: A bird!Elliot: ...yeah, a bird and...Denise: Eh that like a dragon la!Elliot: And we typed in Dennis' name and it says that his name is the sound of bouncing boobs.Fazari: The women are called maids, the men are butlers.Shafienas: Ah yes, I want a butler. Fazari: Okay, don't get a hot one.(Seriously - you're saying that to moi when I've been bragging about HOT korean guys almost everytime I am not talking about studies?)C.Y.: Eh where are you going?Shafiq: (With question paper in hand) I'm going to get some inspiration. (Then, he walked out of class, but came back in 60seconds later.)(We were all in the middle of doing GP Essay, btw.)p.s. I realised how much I miss all my friends - the old and the new.(enter my name here)