It is not about looking at things your way and wondering why he isn't here. It is not about trying to recall what we talked about last night. It is not about thinking where we went wrong. It is not about letting go and acting as if it never happened. It is not about not being able to smile the same way, going to bed crying.
It is about telling him to find the happiness you didn't get to give him. It is about not waiting for the calls to come tonight, or any other nights to come. It is about cherishing all the happy memories, and knowing that they are now just memories. It is about thanking God that it did happen, because we were happy that we met each other. It is about waking up, feeling that life still goes on the anyway. Just as what goes up and comes down, what goes around comes around.
If all this while it had been rainbows and sunny days, I knew that this day would eventually come. Even if I don't understand why, I take it that it was time. Time just wasn't on our side. By the time I could get back to you, you were done waiting. But I hope all this wait wasn't a regret. I hope it wasn't a mistake, but instead it was a pleasure. And given time, I am sure we can eventually laugh this off, even if we can't even smile right now.
I don't have to know what he is doing, how he is doing and where he is going. I just want us to be happy, even if that means without being with each other. And even though there is nothing to talk about, this is one story I will always remember.
Take of yourself; And above all, goodbye.
(enter my name here)
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