Firstly,
NO I AM NOT A TWILIGHT FAN.
Stop trying to get me to watch it for the hot vampires and shit-ass bodies
because I'm on the side that says "The-World-Does-Not-Revolve-Around-Twilight".
Secondly, I am oh-so-
BROKE.
Thirdly, I am oh-so-very-
BROKE.
After 7 adventurous days of non-stop-going-out-of-the-house with friends and family, I am now very satisfied. I had this "agreement" with Dad to let me enjoy this entire week
my way since I won't be going to p___. (
Friends, don't ask because you know the reason even if I hadn't explained anything.)
Putting selfish teenage desires aside, I feel like the road ahead of me is not long,
it's unclear. So, until I can be sure of where the road (if any) leads me, I cannot look into the eyes of my family members and tell them anything.
Just smile, nod or shrug it off.
At last night's feast, I had to face too many question of what, where, why, and when. Being the first person to go through this route, my family sure knows how to put some pressure on me. It doesn't help that too many of them thinks I am the family genius. problem is, even me, myself and I couldn't convince the whole lot that I am far from smart.
Cousin#1: Kak Nurul, was A level difficult?
Me: You took PSLE right? Was that difficult for you?
Cousin#1: Of course la!
Me: If exams are not set to be difficult, then something is definitely wrong somewhere.
Cousin#2: You study until late at night eh Kak Nurul?
Me: No, I start late at night and end in the morning.
Cousin#1: Then what you do in the day?
Me: I'm either in school or at home sleeping...
Mom: ...Or doing anything korean!
Cousin#1: Then will you be entering University?
Me: ...
Cousing #2: What do you want to do?
Me: ...
Cousin#2: If you enter NUS, I'll respect you.
Me: ...
Cousin#1: (to another cousin) Kak Nurul is so clever, and she is a good girl because my mother say so. (turns to me) So Kak Nurul, now that you're done with all that studying, any advice for us? We want to be a genius like you.
I was left even more speechless at the last question. I couldn't even dish out some useful advice. Maybe I did have something-something in my mind and I wanted to say it to them, but I think I was still thinking about the first question he asked that I couldn't answer. Okay let's stop there.
"Don't you think that korean dramas just make you cry?" Okay, yes Mr Y, I believe so too. Maybe not really cry, but overwhelmed that you tear up. Speaking of mr Y, I miss his every-friday-will-be-doing-current-affairs-quiz.
Anyways, I should start a book with all the wonderful quotes, happenings or slip-ups that people around me make. Something like "It happens every night..." (inside joke)
To think that my brother forgot how to spell miracles, he must be so crazy (in love). AND btw, not trusting malay girls don't make you more of a trustworthy malay boy. No, I am not standing up for her. You should do some thinking and mature already, maybe while in NS?
And I pity those who can't even start the wheels turning.
I miss riding bicycles while playing hide-and-seek in the carpark.
I'm still confused.I'm still very confused.So now, I'm trying hard
to make myself seem busy.
I should be very good at that.
Because when I'm busy,
I won't have time to think, would I?
I'm still too very confused.(enter my name here)
