Thank You So Much Borak Buddies.
Life is the second scariest thing that I've ever gone through, and I'm not even halfway done with it. I just want the year to end because too many unfortunate things have happened and I'm tired of having to deal with them. Uncertainty is something I've never learned to cope with, and yet this life is full of it. Oh God, give me the strength to be strong, especially now.
Through this, I'm fortunate enough to see that I've got friends whom I can always fall back on. The friends who can make me angry when they take my seat in lecture theatres, or when they don't seem to understand the importance of not forgetting to inform me things when I'm not around - they aren't always all bad. Because everytime whenever I need them the most, without fail, they will make me smile again. They'd take my mind of those unfortunate events and do little stuffs like make a love letter into the shape of a boat and give it to my 'scandal' to give it to me in a funny way. These borak buddies of mine are the treasures that I've found after 2 years in MJC. Allah sahaja yang mampu balas budi baik rakan-rakanku.
Speaking of we're-in-this-together-kind of friends, I was lepak-ing with my A.I. when she brought up the 3 things that has always made her think, which in turn made me think:
- Why is it that humans can never get enough and will always want more, everytime they get something they want?
- The fact that just by looking at the MRT from afar, that come and go every few minutes can make you feel safe. (I believe in this now.)
- How can someone really love another person, to the point that they want to get married?
As you can see, the things that she mentioned are not only strangely unique, but it's just something that we don't usually bother ourselves with. And whenever I talk to her, she will always have questions that even I have never thought about. Although they may be lame or sungguh-tidak-perlu, but she makes it fun to answer them because she's not someone that can be easily influenced/convinced by the shit that you put forth. (I don't know why I'm saying this.)
Hence, I can conclude that this is how life is. It can turn you around, twist you, crush you or confuse you. It can hit you real hard one day, or it can even tear you down again and again. Life isn't all about rainbows. But, there will be times when you can just stop and look back in your life, and realise that there are joy in this world. There are times when you'd jump up and down the stairs, or singing to every tune that comes into your mind because you competing with another friend who is also singing to every tune that comes to his mind. What's important is that you just stick to your guns and face every shit that comes head on. What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.
All in all, I just want to say that while life have proven to me that friends may come and go, there are also others that will always be there. I'm reminded of what my dear Ms Yeo said: When you go there, you will meet new people, and these will be the people who will always feel what you feel and understand you even more than you can understand yourself. You will never feel scared, and you are never alone because they are there too.
Borak Buddies 08-09 - ILU.
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