maybe when i am rich enough,
i'd buy a house with that kind of view too on my rooftop.
i have not laughed so much like how i did today for a very long time, and i honestly, sincerely miss it every second of it - it makes me stop wondering what happiness is really all about. okay maybe not permanently, but for a moment there, i thought i just couldn't stop laughing, or even smiling for that matter (could be because of that person sitting in front of me - it's just weird!) anyway, i really do hope such moments would come again every now and then, but i doubt it'd be in the near future when we start internalizing the words "A levels" for real this time. then, time would be so chaotic and it'd be one of the guilty pleasures to have R&R. oh sheesh,
life is just so screwed.
and that is exactly the (only) reason why i am going to really live every moment as it is. because what begins, will end one day. and i don't ever want to regret anything, even my silliest/dumbest/biggest mistakes. so far, it's been good.
My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride
speaking about mistakes, i just did something so stupid. and i guess it was of pure luck that it went by unnoticed. if not, i'd be crying by now because i'd be so dead. but now, i'm just happy whatever that happened did happen the way it is.
oh but i guess i wasn't the only happy kid there and then - someone else certainly had fun and was all happy and smiley, wasn't she?
another you-shouldn't-give-a-damn confession:
i think when the time comes, you just have to let it all out {and i will}. you have to say it, even if it means that you're practically going to lose everything else {which i will too}. i hope one day, i'd gather enough guts to face it all. i hope when that day really do come, i won't back out and just give it a shot. because i'm going to get just one shot, and if i'm going to screw it, then i might as well give all that i've got, right? i don't want to be the one to feel like i've not given enough, because i've really tried my best. but if this isn't already good enough, then too bad for me. but i know i won't be the one to think what would've have happened otherwise. all in all, i think i'm trying to say that when it's time to do it, i really will give up. { just not now though, at least not yet.}this post goes to show that whilst people go back home and start studying through the holidays for MYE, we simply headed to our 'town' a.k.a. white sands and pretended as if MYE was already over when it was only the first paper. how not-so-surprising!
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