It has been a very long, long, long 3 months and 3 days.
It has been a very long, long, long 3 months and 3 days.
It has been a very long, long, long 3 months and 3 days.
you have no idea how much i hate myself right now.
you have no idea how much i really loathe you now.
you really really really have no idea.
Why did it have to be you?
Why was it you?
Why you?
you don't seem to care or bother;
you don't try to ask or wonder;
you and your own world, with or without me.
now i don't know if i know you;
now i don't know what is true;
now i don't know anything.
once upon a time i was falling in love.
now, i'm only falling apart.
what's worse, i fell down real hard.
i can't be bothered anymore if this thing ends tonight.
i won't be bothered anymore to make anything be better.
and YOU, should have told me to stop, when i started.
no matter how far i run, or how high i fly, or how hard i try,
no matter how ignorant you were, or how silly you've been, or if i sigh,
no matter what it was, nothing has changed.
you are forever my best friend, but i'll never be your best friend.
and all of them asked me like i'm 4 year old Ben:
what is the difference, nurulshafienasbintesalleh?
this is the difference -
this different difference is getting different.
do you understand?
A small birthday surprise for our awesome joy-ah, who never fail to bring joy(ah) to the world with her constant laughter and bright smiles. the picture of course captures everyones' not-so-fake smiles and of course, siti's as-per-usual over-the-top expression. oh holy! i'm lazy to upload all the other pictures tonight.
on a lighter note: idk why i'm actually doing this, but i just want to list out the names of those oh-so-big-already 18-ers for the last 2 months and 14 days: SitiKay, Nadirah, Elliot Lucas Marcell (fyi, that's 1 person), Munirah Joy-ah, Azrul Gossip King and Neni Farahin. hope i didn't miss out on anyone. okay now, suddenly i wished i'm 18 too! and to think i haven't even accepted the fact that i'm already 17! somehow, i think i'm still stuck at 16! oh mama mia - shit.
and oh, surprises are good things - i still don't like them if it's for me - no, don't ask why.
but if you're planning one, i'm pretty sure my drama can be of good use.
(enter my name here)
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