I'm loving you, the words you just have to believe my small words that gets mixed up as a lie. I'm missing you, the words that sound like an echo; My small words that shout and shout into empty space Why do I... at first smile when I'm in front of you but when I turn around, why does it hurt? If I must be hurt, I'll endure the pain, even if I'm miserable and want to lean on you, I'll be patient. If I have to throw something away, I'll throw it all away without hesitation, even the last of my well-kept pride. Everything... even a little spec of memory that I won't forget I wonder if it's only a burden... I wake myself up from absent mind-ness. Our photo album with our fingerprints on it, I said it's the only thing that has my happy self in it. You once said that I was the only love in the world. Why can't you say it anymore? If I must be hurt, I'll endure the pain, even if I'm miserable and want to lean on you, I'll be patient. If I have to throw something away, I'll throw it all away without hesitation, even the last of my well-kept pride. Everything... A number that I can't even count (every night). I poured a handful (of just tears). I don't know whether it's time to comfort me or time to forget you, even if I have to act crazy, I want to yell that I love you. So that you can remember me among your many memories. I'll cherish the words 'I can wait' in my heart. I'll save and hold onto it until it wears out. If we can start again sometime in the future, I have one thing I want to tell you whole-heartedly... I'll do well...

oh oh and when he dance, i'll be blown away immediately. he just steals my breath, and make me want to dance with him.OMG, he's really one of a kind. especially this song, i can't sit when i hear it. you have got to see the ending.

song: Nan Arayo (i know)


then there's also his fashion sense. he always looks good and has this charming aura whenever he sings. i like it when he takes off his shades, like sugar rush. oh and i can practically know how he moves in this song. every moment of them all.

song: La La La


what about this video? the party song, another hit on my playlist. he is in the right kind of suit, for any guy who wants to charm any girl. seriously, just oh. and his smile, his hair, is simply OMG. when he sang the words at 1.35-ish and said 'stop', so did my heartbeat. let the music play, dance the night away.

song: All Night Long


next, i love it when he sings ballads. whenever i listen to this song, it's like the kind of feeling you get when miracles happen. yes, the voice. like he meant it, he sang and i listened.

song: Last of Diary


and this is dedicated to those faithful, loyal lovers. his expressions, his tears, and his stares - what words can i use now? speechless, just amazed and stoned.

song: Come Back To Me 2


and get this, he's just not into korean songs. he has some great japanese songs too. even when i don't really like to hear it when the people converse in this language, idk what came over me during this song. this is the one song i'll play every time i switch on the computer. never got tired of it, never got bored, always touched and often found myself singing along. i used to depend on the words, now i can just sing my way through the chorus.

song: Aitai (want to love you)


speaking of japanese, i finally found a japanese boyfriend. fazari, (if you are reading this) it's yamamoto yousuke, not yakamura yousogay. ohmygod, idk whether i should smack your head or laugh along.


idk what else to put up, so i'll just post the pictures of yesterday. i'm feeling so attached to them and i really can't wait to meet up again in January. maybe that's why i can't wait for the big 2009. yesterday's goodbye could have been better, and i could have been more prepared for the shit 'last session' speech. you know like the feeling of graduating, like you can tell this story a milli0on times to anyone, yes it's something like that for me about them. now i know how some people can just walk in and out of your lives, and how they can really leave their footprints behind without you realising it.

too bad, not all MJC-ians can be there. what do you expect? it was Christmas eve. idk what they say to the others, or what they said amongst themselves, but from this picture, i know they enjoyed themselves. that's nice, just sweet. { i can imagine raidah, nadirah and fadilah looking out for someone.}

Group 1
Mr Lee: what time can you come? 3pm?
Ayah: 3pm cannot ar, i working. 5pm can?
Mr Lee: 5pm cannot, i go jogging.
Ayah: then what time?
Mr Lee: 5.10pm?
Ayah: i cannot. 5.30 lah.
Mr Lee: eh i cannot late late. how about 5.35pm?
Ayah: err can la, can la.

Ayah: ok la, i won't come back late again. nak chocolate?
Adik: chocolate tu tak penting (insert the pity, sad face here)...

{again, who's face are you looking out for? a familiar stranger, or an unknown friend? okay la, raidah yang ni boleh tahan la muke si dia tu - tak padan kecik.}

Group 2
Their favourite line: Alaahh... tapi...
you know with that sad tone and the stupid face. merepek sia, so irritating. and oh the peace sign, the belo smile and the freeze-rewind. and what about the 'betol-betol-betol' with the little boy's voice? they are super funny, but not in front of the teachers! when we were practising, thought they were just brilliant, superb! ohwells. i didn't know the narrator joined my group. i think because he was first attached here.

Group 3
Kamil: What's this?
Bob: just take ar. Shake shake (shakes his head)

Kamil: eh what time to meet? 8pm?
Bob: 8pm cannot, nak tengok berita la. 8.10 ar.
Kamil: ok.

okay okay, not really the details that i wanted to share. but whattheheeck.