i try not to think about it. but then i think about it, and i try to tell myself to stop thinking about it because thinking about it, won't make it happen any sooner. so i try with all my might and i try real hard to not think about it. but thinking about not thinking about it, only makes me think about it more. and so, my mind tries to divert itself from thinking about it by thinking about why i shouldn't think about it. but at the end of this all, it only proves that i am
constantly
thinkingaboutit.(approx. 10 hours ago)
i am way too sick to talk about it now, as much as i really want too. and i am way too upset i couldn't meet up with D to talk about it. because if there's anything i swear to myself i wouldn't tell anyone about, D definitely isn't part of that 'anyone' bunch of craziest, wildest, oh-so-loved friends of moi.
my head hurts like hell from the thinking and this painful migraine. and everytime i sneeze, and everytime i move my head, and everytime i talk, and everytime i look up, and everytime i sit,
i feel like exploding.
so yes, stupidS T U P I Dstupid me - to think about you even now.
p.s. but it's much better now.
(enter my name here)
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