I've made the decision, again. At least, I made one.
About time I did too. If not; Let's not get there.
Can't really say what it feels now, but I guess it's much better this way. I can't really say/know if this is good, I am better now. Just let out a huge sigh of relief. Maybe relief is the right word to sum it all.
I can't know for sure now if it's going to happen to me anyway, but I know I am going to be okay. All by myself - I think I can get used to it. After all, it's not that hard. Just throw in some short scandals here and there, catch up with a few friends every now and then and oh yes, most importantly, going for a hiatus once in awhile. Come on Shafienas, you need to believe in yourself more.
Regret? Can't let go? Should I have not instead? What is this "right thing" to do? I'll use up all this time to find that answer. Maybe somewhere along the way, sometime in the near future?
I am not going to question this decision again. I am not going to look back, no matter how much I miss it. No, don't you dare silly girl. You've wasted so much, given so much, hoped for so much. Don't you dare go back there. Regret? Disappointed? Confused? Or perhaps sorry? Go figure yourself out. Take it slow. You have all the time now.
What a ride it has been. Ready for another one?
Hmm not now, maybe not even in the near future.
Idk when I'd ever be ready again,
but I guess I'll know when the time comes.
When you are confused, and don't know what to choose, flip a coin.
When the coin is in the air, you'll suddenly know what you're hoping for.
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