So much has happened over this one year.
One year ago, I didn't know things would be this way.
One year later, and I realised how much I've lost.
One year ago, it happened one month after we celebrated Mothers' Day.
This year, it was 2 days short. I'm still trying to catch my breath.
In this one year, I've probably gone through some of the hardest days,
seen dark clouds always hanging over me wherever I go,
sometimes the rain would be so heavy that it'll scare me to sleep,
but on other times after that heavy rainstorm, I'll see the rainbow.
In this one year, I've lost 3 significant people,
3 people I've known all my life,
3 loving, caring and cheerful people,
3 kind-hearted people that I respect,
3 souls from this big BIG family.
Every time, it seems as if it all happened too fast.
Every time, it's like I could still remember our last talk.
But this time, I couldn't even look into my mother's eyes.
This year, I couldn't bear to say those three words.
Wishing her a "Happy Mothers' Day" was too difficult,
so I did it quickly before both of us started crying again.
But on the other hand, I'm proud to have at least made her happy with my own great news. My success that made everyone proud of me. My success that made everyone happy for me. Being the first ever to get a spot in the University wasn't easy. But this success isn't because of me, but because of them as much as it was for them. Thank you Allah.
One year ago, I was this close to giving up. This year I was this close to letting them down. All I can say: For everything that He takes from us, He will give back just as much. For every sorrow, for every hardship and for every tear that we shed, He will send some the happiness that we all needed. He is fair, He is always with us. So for everything that happened, I am thankful. Because this way, I know that He stills loves us and tests us through our short-lived lives.
Al-Fatihah to my 3 grandparents. Amin.
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