Just had a Ramen Ten lunch date with my girlfriends :) Guess that was enough to cheer me up somehow. Got myself a korean phrasebook, so
I am definitely happy, okay?The reason why the truth hurts,
is because it is true. It is the truth.
In the end, this is not me. I cannot believe how much I have changed that I am just so overwhelmed right now. I am still trying to accept it, so it will take some time.
I have said too much to too many people, that I want to forget what I have just said. Because I think I don't even know what to feel, or how I should feel. I want to walk alone in the crowds or just stare into spaces. I don't want to be judged anymore for anything, and I don't want to be told by anyone what to do now.
I don't want to be given choices, I don't want to be forced to choose, I don't want to compromise and choose.I don't want to explain it -
my reasons, my excuses.
I want to just think, and keep on thinking.
I want to sit down and think again.
I want to disappear and let myself get lost
so that
I can think like me, like myself.Until I know what I want,
it'll be a blind chase, and
I am just like the blind mice.
My faith in hope is fading. Maybe it is even gone.
But somehow, this feeling of absence
still worries me.
In the end, I decide to practice
my right to remain silent.
I will never tell again.(enter my name here)
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