1. H1N1 cases in Singapore has reached to 220 already! Why aren't they closing the schools? Why in the world is it still allowed to open on Monday? Isn't prevention better in times like these? (okay this is just my wishful thinking and very biased opinion.)

2. The GC needs more functions that are crucially important to students like do-all-the-workings, crash-course, tell-me-the-right-answer-because-the-teacher-is-just-another-human-who-makes-mistakes, or maybe having a touch function or having a voice that can really teach you maths. (But that would make going to school useless.) Because right now, the GC is only applicable when I actually know what I'm supposed to do from the question. Unfortunately, I don't.

3. Even though MYE has yet to start, I've got too much that I want to do after that. Amongst which would be the shopping, the movie-marathons, the many many many travelling to places on this small island (or even to ubin?) and chilling out while catching up with old friends and oh, the lots of sleeping. But I think above all, I really do need the talking to girlfriends. It's been long.

4. I think my parents are already well-aware that they have a 65.324581469887% chance of coming down to school for a parent-teacher conference. Oh holy.

5. A very-sarcastic-and-original friend of mine once said: Don't catch time. Let time catch you. In other words, (she's trying to say): be ahead of time. This shall be my mantra from now on. Thanks to you my friend, I've realised the utmost importance of time management. (or is it all about good timing?)

My parents have been going in and out of the house, all busy to watch their youngest son in silat finals, or whatever (besides going to work and and the hospital). My elder brother has been going in and out the house too, doing God-Knows-What. And as for moi, I've been shifting here and there, from my room to the living room to my parents' room and even yes, right beside the fridge in the kitchen.

I've been appointed as the full-time security guard for this beautiful and not-so-big mansion. Lucky thing, I have my dear Differentiation and Integration and many-other-mathematics topics to cover for the MYE. And oh yes, if you're wondering what my pay is, it's all the things I can find in the kitchen. Of course, that is if it's not already empty. I need to go to NTUC.

Oh did I tell you that I love running errands. And I absolutely love going round and round in NTUC to find all the stuffs needed. It makes me feel as if I'd make a good housewife someday. 

Speaking about parents running around, I was wondering when was the last time I saw my parents so geared up to be part of the cheerleading team. The only time they came down for my netball game was when our team made it to the finals and I was in Sec 2. And that was after I specifically told them that I wanted them there. And when I became a proud drama member, sadly they couldn't make it to any of my plays. The time I was part of the cast, they had work to do. And for the past two years, I've been the crew because my father doesn't really approve of me being one of the cast. He even disapprove of me joining this internship opportunity that I got. To think of it, he didn't like me playing netball either. That's the reason why I could quit so easily, even when the coach kept on insisting that I stay.

(p.s. No, I do not hate my parents; I was just thinking.)

And now, I'm too fed up with maths, and the GC just died on me. So I came here, and oh I should treat myself some mysoju.com shows. Oh btw to my dearest girls who are also mysoju.com fans, you can go to dramacrazy.net for the same kind of entertainment. I just found another alternative to watch all your favourite shows, just in case our dear mysoju.com fails.

This is how I spend my weekends, stuck at home or making my way to the hospital again. Oh wow, I definitely have a life, don't you think?

(enter my name here)

Anyways, chillax session at Shatun/Shafiq's house was very much needed. (Or was there just too much food?) The last time we had a chillax session, chocolate was the main ingredient. This time, it was chicken, chicken and more chicken! You should have seen what Shatun diligently prepared for us! Let's get to the pictures.

Not forgetting that it wasn't our house to begin with, we just made sure that Shatun gave the thumbs up to let us karaoke and oh, practically disturb all the peace and quiet for the other residents. Too bad we didn't know how to lower the volume.

You should have seen how each one who held that microphone sang with pride and dignity with their not-so-soothing voice. Oh Safiah was more than just a karaoke-er, she rocks my socks (whatever that means).The funny thing was that as soon as we reached the house, all the girls were just sitting around in front of the tv, while all the guys (yes including fazari) were practically in the kitchen preparing the food, led by master chef, Shatun. Can you see how much chicken there is? (Picture below)

Then karaoke started to get boring, and so we moved on to playing childish games like Happy meal and the thumb game. After a few rounds of that, chicken was ready while we were in the middle of playing murderer game. So all civillians either got killed or committed suicide immediately. But the murderer was just too slow at doing his job!Then it was already 8pm. And I decided to be a good girl and not test the patience of my mars parents. So we had a very quick photo session upon my request (everyone was very into the movie we were watching then - Legally Blonde) and as you can see, each one just had to pose in a way that was out of the ordinary. One even had too much criticism coming, I just couldn't add on to the long list.This one in particular: What the heck is Faruq trying to do ??? Obviously he wants to be the original one because practically everyone else is giving the peace sign, except for Faruq's twin brother there - I think he thinks this was an ANTM photoshoot maybe or trying so hard to prove he is a mat afterall?It was a long day, and I loved it. The trip home with Wida should have been longer though, tsk. We should have taken the bus instead. But on a brighter note, I reached home at 9 and not even a single look from my dear father. Not bad nurulshafienasbintesalleh. I think my parents finally realised I'm, 17 going on 18 years old.

Anyway, I am in the distracted mood today. I couldn't sit still for at least 2 hours. And I blame this solely on that rash, impulse moment and now, I'm so scared and nervous. I need to talk to my girls - It's been far too long without all the gossips sessions and oh the confessions. But for now, I'll just be loyal and faithful to my darling bornhardts and the lovely castle kopjes, and the beautiful process of gentrification.

Now, has anyone seen my brain?

but at least you were there for me, and you still are. so did a bloody hell lot of everyone else who knew. and i'm thankful for everything. but who knows, if you try a little bit harder next time, i'll probably be over this and then you'd get what you wish for. no, i'm not angry or even the least offended (i'm seriously serious about this one), i'm just disappointed with myself too, especially today about 7 months ago.

this is the reason why i never told anyone my reason: because IDK; maybe next time you'd want to take me seriously when i said idk.

on a much brighter and happier note: MJI had our much needed gathering before the MYE stress starts taking its toll. and for those of you who weren't there, there'll be a next time {i guess.} there were lots of food (like seriously), the playing games-that-i-sucked-real-bad-at and karaoke and oh the movie. one constant: cam-whoring. more pictures up real sooon, i think.

for now, make do with these.

I realised that while we can't tear a single page of our life,
we can throw the whole book in the fire.
-Blair Waldorf

There's a BBQ tomorrow, and I'm stuck between the options that I have.

Maybe we can't have any more than what we get.
Maybe all we can get is all that we already have.
And then, it's up to us to make the most out of it.

Like it or not, we're stuck with this shit, and this is life.

Oh look at how far this has gone since it started,
and on the other side, how near we are to the end.
It's been long.

Saturday, 6 June - Atiqah's sis' wedding
Like how we used to do it back in the old days, standing where the fan stops.
Such bad habits are really hard to get rid of.

So, the girls, as we separated from the guys, started eating and chilling out and taking more pictures, and catching up with friends who are always oh-so-surprised to see old friends at such good timing.

Rashidah and her tail.

The bride was beyond gorgeous!

The groom with the (as Namirah says it: kupang) kuda kepang.

Monday, 8 June - Rashidah's birthday
I hang around in school, trying to do as much maths as possible before that, and how {maybe-not-so}coincidentally, all that came into the discussion room were doing maths! And btw, fyi I do not look like the information counter, right? People just cannot stop coming to me asking something, or finding someone. Oh well, (inside joke) with great responsibility, comes great power.

Moving on, RADIOS (minus Diyanah) met again today to give the birthday girl a surprise. Turns out, she somehow expected it coming already. {No, this is not the birthday girl.}

Wow, we look flawless.
Inside joke: Lawa tak gigku? {insert big LOL here}

Namirah, Atiqah, Shafienas, Rashidah; Zahidah's behind camera.

Drinks were only served after I unexpectedly and unintentionally raised my voice to the manager. Oops - the customer is always right, right? Oh and don't get me started about how bad their service was - goodness gracious!

Everyone was busy catching up with everything, or at least wanted to. And as we devoured on the food, soon we realised it was already 7 and I have approximately 1 hour to get home. And yes, the curfew bar has been officially raised people. {Terms and conditions apply.}

Oh at one moment, Zahidah was busy talking about something to Rashidah, and then she suddenly said: Omg your mouth is so big! And everyone couldn't stop laughing at how big a piece of pizza can go into her mouth. Funny how she didn't realise that before. Cutting up the pizza was really tiring, seriously.

Last picture - If KFC had the grandfather outside the restaurant, Cheers just hired these 4 ladies to be the new faces of their stores! So do keep a lookout for them! (especially the one in green jeans; she does voluntary work at Santa's.)

Today was definitely a session I needed. Thank you girls.


Alright, anyway to RADIOS: check your email for the pictures.
And please reply to the message I left there.

I don't even have to wonder why we were friends, why we still are friends, and why we will always be. We are the girls who sat all the way at the back of the class doing out own business every time, and we are the girls who always come in late whenever possible, be it class or school. And when we just can't be bothered, we just don't come at all! That's why best friends will always be best friends. ( Another lesson to be learned here, if you get what i really mean actually.) Gosh, today was more than just fun! We should have more outings like these, where we not only talk like no tomorrow , but eat like there was no yesterday too. {If Diyanah were there, it would have been just nice.}

And maybe {just maybe} I will be a good girl and make a Facebook account for moi one of these days, given that I'v found enough incentive and time to do it.
oh and Happy 18th Birthday again, Rashidah.