Yesterday, we walked; Today, I ran.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

and then finally

8:55:00 PM

before i begin, this is going to be one heck of a long post. don't blame me. i did warn you.

okayyy, so it's been way too long since i last blogged. well, honestly not much has happened except that i actually did go to mars. haha, nevermind. i won't be bothered to explain the trip, just to save you the trouble of reading. anyways, i've missed out two GREAT events while i was gone - Picnic Botanic and OGL Camp! and guess what, they had more fun that i thought i was going to miss. good for them! but not for me, duhh. but whattheheck, not the least jealous. (no, i'm lying!)

BUT, i had fun spending a WHOLE day with D. yes, the girlfriend of the year. well, actually, it's just another reason to get out of the house. haha. okay, seriously the holiday was a big CONFUSION seh. one day i'm in johor, then i'm back in Singapore, then next i was at bugis and that night, went back into johor and then up up and away to kampong bonda. haha.

speaking of bugis, ohmygod. actually this confusion was due to the late ticket bookings and whatnot so it ended up with my brothers and i not having tickets to board the bus. so that day i returned to Singapore, i went out with D. kind of last minute. because i was pissed i had to stay at home. my parents weren't at home even! haha. i literally dressed all black just so that i won't be spotted easily. but oh no! my own house captain saw me and he was like: "ehhhhh......" i just walked away. honestly, i'm not supposed to be seen because i'm not even supposed to be in Singapore, right? but whattheheck! plans change, and i mean drastically.

so moving on, D and i basically had some nice girlfriend times spent together. we first were at bugis, then back to p.ris and straight to airport for a very late lunch! we ate at this very secluded place: Air House Cafe and ohmygod. you have to go there. actually you just need to see how b-e-a-u-tiful the toilet is. funny how some pathetic little things mesmerizes me. oh then after that we did more lepak-ing and met somebody oh-so-unexpected. let me see if the pictures could explain them to you in detail.

could you tell this was the toilet? haha, and oh this isn't some membership shit place that you need to go. but i never knew it existed. thanks for the discovery D!

i think D felt like some emo-shit-punk-rocker that day.

we literally made that toilet like home. i know, ewww- but wth!

and OMG i love the mirror, though it's kind of weird.

idk if you could see but D wore my black vest that day. and the first thing she said when she wore it, whilst looking at the mirror made me laugh like crazy for the rest of the day.
Shafienas: cheh!
Diyanah: (tanpa segan-silu) eh, kalah zac efron.

i can't explain enough how randomly silly that comment was!

the lockers were all unlocked!

we had to get out of that toilet cos i think we'd be chased out! so next after T2, we went to T3.
and of course, more cam-whoring.

despite the many onlookers, we never bothered. it's a free country, love.

look! D wore eyeliner! haha, but idk how it got smudged.

and then, we made our way to T1 before i get my call from home.
T1 - ohmygod, i miss going there everyday!
airport is like my playground.

we did a prank on one of our colleagues and he actually fell for it.
well, at least sort of.

too bad we couldn't see them all, so we called all that we could remember.

and this is her expression for the day.

and here is mine.

and oh, i saw my godfather! haha miss all those pakciks and makciks la!
seriously, they rock! luckily we could see him, but only through the glass window. tsk! so sad. wished could stay longer. but then, i was late, for reality. (wth! so Cinderella story.)

this is the last picture for the day, in the lift.

then the night before i came back to Singapore, stayed at uncle's place and called D using the ppd card that Dad bought to use in M'sia. didn't want to waste it, so i spent it all. from 1120plus all the way to nearly 3am in the morning. couldn't sleep, so talked all night about memories and sec sch life. back then, it was like the perfect world sia. everyday was always some new joke coming around. and i laugh the night away with D as we recalled about the funny things we did/say/saw/witness/went through in Damai.

anyways, enough of the girlfriends already. today i was oh-so-bored. so i updated my picasa. and ohmygod, never been more excited. can create collage better and could add in words. so i experimented like hell.

this is for Haniffa's magazine. i'm contributing this wonderful piece for your 2nd issue maybe? wth! i just love it.

the 1st try(below) was wrong. but i'll just upload it. did so much better for 2nd try(upper).
i'm getting so good at these things.
(click on picture for the must-see captions guys!)
so un-luckily, ain and atiqah couldn't make it. tsk!

and oh! before i end off, tomorrow's going to be fun. i think. would be seeing D to go somewhere to do something i'm not even sure i want. (what were you thinking???) but wth! then would be seeing shahidah who suddenly msg'd me to get my geography notes. then off to A301 class bbq, where i'd only stay for awhile, cos i'm not really into bbq's anymore. i'm more of a picnic person. what's the diff? err, the timing. in my case, time is golden. and oh, yes! tuesday would be going SHOPPING. though this is the one part of a girl's life that i don't enjoy much, it's better than rotting at home. let's just hope we'd be more into catching up and otherstuffs rather than window-shopping. because i'm 1)broke and 2) not really interested, i think.

to those of you seeing me tomorrow, may you be surprised. it's the holidays- everything changes. okay, that's it for tonight, already have said too much here.

p.s and if only i'm not me, maybe we've been something. because i'm not your same old same old friend, ok?

(enter my name here)

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Monday, November 24, 2008

thank you, you

11:50:00 PM

this is for you, nur diyanah bte md. ismail.

chocolates makes us love.
God has made us sisters.

George Santayana said:
the loneliest woman in the world is
a woman without a close woman friend.

thank you for being there for me.
thank you for always talking to me during our class breaks.
thank you for standing up for me.
thank you for coming late to school purposely to get our first late slip.
thank you for buying me goong dvd.
thank you for taking stupid pictures with me.
thank you for taking the long 21 bus rides with me everyday after school.
thank you for giving me those beautiful earrings.
thank you for shopping with me.
thank you for eating with me gogo franks.
thank you for being my first colleague.
thank you for treating me popeyes.
thank you for giving me wildest opportunities.
thank you for giving me the pink ping pong ball with the letter A.
thank you for skipping physics class with me.
thank you for jumping over the school fence with me.
thank you for worrying over me.
thank you for those late night calls.
thank you for sharing your camera with me.
thank you for letting me use your comb.
thank you for answering all my stupid questions.
thank you for the sleepover.
thank you for those other things,
no matter how small and little they are;
which even i had not done for you.
thank you, thank you, thank you.

i can go on and list out more of what silliest, dumbest, craziest things
that you've done for me, or even with me.
but what i want you to know is that
i sincerely thank you,
more than what it means.
because you are more than just my friend.

cinderella had her fairy godmother
blair waldorf had serena van der woodsen
mary-kate had ashley olsen
troy bolton had chad danforth
paris hilton had nicole ritchie
snow white had the seven dwarfs
blossom had bubbles and buttercup
ugly betty had hilda suarez

i have you -
my best friend, my sister, my partner in crime, my sidekick, my well wisher;
making me be all that i can be -
stronger, bolder, braver, smarter;
telling me all that i am -
special and beautiful inside and out.

we have gone a long way,
but the road for us is still much longer.
but, please oh please know, my dear friend:
i'll be here for you every step of the way,
just like how you've been for me.
i'll be your lighthouse, your guardian angel, your pillar and your first-aid person,
just like how you've been for me.

to my beautiful friend:
who knows me more than i do;
who knows my deepest secrets;
who laughs out loud about me;
who makes me her official best friend;
thank you, you.

to the rest of the world:
meet nur diyanah bte md. ismail -
the one and the only
bestest best freind
nurulshafienasbintesalleh ever had.

(enter my name here)

Labels: the world as it is

Sunday, November 23, 2008

is anybody out there?

5:09:00 PM

they say love is friendship.
so what happens when friends fall in love?
do you wake up a into a dream?
or do you start living a nightmare?

just thinking, just a decent thought.
no, i don't know.
seriously, serious shit.

lately, i haven't been able to snap out of this oh-so crappy down-right-emo-shit mood, so i can't really find the words to say whatever i want to say or explain anything that needs explanation for or even confess to any guilty charges. (i'm definitely not making sense, right?) that's why i've been posting innocent-nonsense posts lately.

and oh, suddenly, it's been raining and all this thunder and lightnings makes things much more worse. gosh this is so depressing. because right after i posted the lyrics to the song Thunder, it's like life has been that way ever since. ohmygod, karma. okay whatever, nurulshafienasbintesalleh is no longer making sense and has stopped responding to any Earthings. (okay, i'm exaggerating here.)

and oh, my bedroom has never been so clean and neat and tidy. suddenly this small space seems like the only wonderful place on this wonderful planet for this moi. if only i can take a picture and flaunt it off to the rest of the world. but then, who'd be bothered?

when you're at crossroads,
does it even matter if you beat the red lights?
this person turned right; that person took left.

i read this from an old book. (yes, in times of extreme boredom, you'd find that yourself resort to the most silliest and ultimately out-of-the-blue things.)

i am not one to cry.
but when it's raining, it's okay.

(enter my name here)

Labels: and who am i?

hello cupid

12:54:00 AM

can you keep a secret tonight?
i'll tell you if you said yes.

but if i tell you this secret,
my secret wouldn't be a secret anymore, right?

oh well - at least i've confessed to cupid.
oh and she told me not to tell you.
oh because she grant me three wishes.

a girl can dream, she said.
in these days, a girl can lie too.
i didn't say i'm lying. (do i look like a liar to you?)
LAUGH OUT LOUD.

anyway, my life is getting more boring by the minute.
at least i've got a date with my partners-in-crime on 2nd dec 2008.

(eneter my name here)

Labels: the world as it is

Saturday, November 22, 2008

the title says untitled

6:22:00 PM

i was reading a book and i came across this inspiring saying:

only when you've braved through the thunderstorm,
will you enjoy the beautiful rainbow.

only when lies become the truth,
will the truth be only lies.

now, if only you can understand it too.
i am still figuring it out though.
let me get back to that book, and i'll get back to you.

(enter my name here)

Labels: pause, play, rewind

hear me say

2:50:00 PM

before i start, let me just say that i have not been me these few days. nothing much happened. nothing much to say. end of story, no questions asked please.

Today's a winding road that's taken me
To places that I didn't want to go
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye
I'm holding on to something and
I do not know why
I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today's a winding road
Tell me where to start and
Tell me something I don't know
Whoa
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and
I can't pick up the phone
I don't know

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know
How much I feel your pain

Today's a winding road that's taken me
To places that I didn't want to go
Whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder, and I said

Your voice
Was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring
On the pain
And listen to the thunder

if only you were just another friend, i would have written these words just for you.
if only you were just another friend, i would have sang this short song just for you.
if only you were just another friend, i would have done all that i could just for you.

so i'm praying you'd hear me now
and hear me say, still hear me out;
even if you are not just another friend.

(enter my name here)

Labels: the world as it is

Friday, November 21, 2008

tick tock tick tock

10:35:00 PM

they say a picture paints a thousand words.

tonight, let them do all the talking.

the place where it starts again.

had a plan to celebrate ms dee-va's belated 17th birthday

this is the dee-va, diyanah.
"dah siap pakai uniform haji nampaknyer kak?"

but the main purpose was just to get together with these oh-so-precious people.
but we were missing ain and atiqah. ohwells.

oh but the brown-slipper girl spoilt the surprise for the red-slipper girl.
Diyanah: macam budak primary school sia ambil gambar macam gini.

Shafienas: tau takpe.

start the camera rolling!

and oh yes, i can't forget haikal.
i am trying to think of what i think he's doing.
whatever that is.

his expressions are really priceless.
this one looks like he finally realised he's been photographed!
maybe he said: oh are you taking pictures of me?

if you zoom this picture, and see haikal in the background, his expression seemed as though he said this:
"ehh take my picture some more lahhh!!! HELLO?!"

this is my expression for the day as shown by fazari.
what a copycat!
(i always knew you had monkey-ish genes.)

Diayanah looked like she was saying "ohmygod shakespeare has begun..."

and now she looked like she's seeing shakespeare and anabel chong together.
if you get what i mean and who is who.
(just joking here.)

many thanks to this photographer-on-site for all the b-e-a-u-tiful pictures.

i oh-so-LOVE this picture.
Diyanah: let this dee-va steal the show.
Haniffa: u'hu, u betta take my picture while you still can.
Fazari: just get this over and done with, whoever you reporter are.
Shafienas: OMG, im taking pictures with the hottest people in town!! mom, dad, can you see me ???

so that was it.
now by the end of this post, how many thousand words have i saved on typing?
seriously, you people are love.
just like how i said we would;
history repeats itself just perfectly.

p.s do you love me because i'm beautiful or am i beautiful because you love me?

(enter my name here)

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